Present
School work. A lot of it. I'm doing worse this quarter than I did last. I will fail at this rate. It scares me. I might as well write some more. 299 reads. I'm happy. I'M ACTUALLY HAPPY. almost 300. I completed one thing on my list. Now I have one more to add. 700 more reads to go.
Mom finished my desk. I just am sitting here. I don't know what to do. Let's read some fanfics. I started reading one. It didn't really matter what it was about. Nothing really mattered. Happiness fades quickly, Leaving nothing in its path. I haven't really felt much at all recently. It's all just kind of been numb. But I just going to ignore it anyways. I should probably make a meet with the guidance counselor. But I am not good at talking to people. I never have been. Being numb makes it easier to fake happy.
I moved from my desk to my bed just because that chair was to uncomfortable. I sat in my bed and read the fanfic. The sad character had the same thought process as me. Relatable. The character was scared that if he didn't push people away, That he would hurt them. So Relatable.
There was more I just didn't write (220 words) completed 1/21/2021
