present
9/17/21
10:06pm
I miss you. Actually maybe I don't. This is probably just random guilt.
I miss you too. I'm sorry I don't talk to you that much. I'm sorry we don't hangout anymore.
I wish I missed you. All I feel is guilt. I still find myself hoping I can talk to you, hoping that maybe you would be willing to be my best friend again.
I miss when we could talk for hours, we'd stay up on calls for entire days with each other. I'm sorry I left.
I miss you so much. It's only been four weeks but even then the spark was gone. I'm sorry I broke your friend group up.
I'm sorry I don't miss you. You were a great sibling. None of that should have happened to you.
I miss you so much. I want you to come back, please. I need to be me again. Who even am I though?
I'm gonna ruin everything, I always do. I can't just keep it together. It's killing me, literally. I need to be better. I need to be perfect. If I am then nothing will go wrong.
Give your parents a normal child. That's what they want. Be an engineer, dad said you'd be good at it.
Unconsciously hurting myself is my favorite hobby :)
(214 words) completed 9/17/21 at 10:22pm
