I tend to forget how young I still am
Been waiting for so long to live in his place
In my heart, it feels like home
I have never been here, but my hopes would never be lost
It was a magic place
Every single dream will come true
But, for some reason, I'm not there
I can't be there
And I'm getting tired and older
I'm afraid I won't be able to reach my dreams
Dreams that have been with me most of my life
Dreams that I have planned very carefully on how to make them work
I feel so frustrated
Nothing I do is enoughI tend to forget how young I still am
Because I'm afraid of an uncertain future
The only truth is that this future is gonna lead me to death
I'm going to become a lonely soul
In the meantime, I should try to do more things
But what can I do?
I study hard, I read books and books
Good grades are always there
Knowledge of some languages too
But what can I do?
I'm not in this magic place yet
I'm tired of waiting and fighting for it
Years are coming ahead and I'm afraid of getting older
What if I never make it?
Frustration is my biggest fear
And my only companion is my severe judgment towards myself
My own self is tiredI tend to forget how young I still am
Provoking myself to get the most out of its body
Not even my parents are like that
Tell me, what's wrong?
I could be my own friend and my own worst enemy
This magic place is so far away from me
I'm getting exhausted
Is it worth it? Are the tears worth it?
When you got that heavy feeling of giving up
The saddest question pops up
Is it worth to still be living?
I close my eyes and try to swim in this glass of water
That feels like the most deepest of the oceans
What would I do when I become older?
Club 27 sounds great
But I'm still a young soul
18 summers dealing with lifeI tend to forget how young I still feel
As well as how I'm starting to forget about this magic place
Where I can't be
Where it seems that I'll never be.Warm is not only about hot climate change
Is not about having a nice summer
And a chilling day at pool
Warm is about that tiny but strong feeling you got
Right there, between your heart and your stomach
In the middle of the soul
Or when you feel warm in someone's arms
Maybe you feel warm under your belly
In your back, where you don't need anything to cover it
A straight, forward hug can make your heart get warm
It can provoke smiles on you
A meaning into your existance
Arms that can guide you through the right path
When you need to cry on
Some shoulders will help and arms will protect you
They even are a complete salvation
Into our darkness days
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