Phobias- Sakusa x Atsumu

Chapter 06- Sick

Y'all embrace yourself 😪 there's gonna be a whole paragraph of complaints-

Astumu POV

3 days later

I think Sakusa is avoiding me. Whenever I tried  to start a conversation, he would always respond in such short replies, like:
"Okay," Or "Nice," sometimes "Sorry, not right now.."

LIKE BRO I WANNA TALK!!! Not only that, he always try to avoid me physically as well, he's been waking up a bit earlier than usual and would quickly get ready before I even wake up. And when I would come back to the dorm after practice in the court, he would already be in the shower, or on his futon sleeping. Whenever we saw each other in the hall, he wouldn't even bother to say "hi" or so much as glance at me. (It's even worse in the court 🤧😭)

I admit, I'm pretty sad by this. But at least I met a few people. For example, there's this first year from Karasuno, his name was...Ka...Kagay? Kagay something else I don't know I forgot. All I know is that he's a exceptional setter, and a blueberry head. I mean he's good..but like...I'm better so he can't compare!

But Sakusa....

Whatever, Sakusa can fuck off for all I care, PFFFT I don't care if he would rather hangout with that......that......Komoro or Komori whatever I don't give a fuck. Who cares if he's been avoiding me for 3 fucking days and been hanging out with his friend. Yeah go ahead just replace me like I'm just some stupid pawn meant to sacrifice myself for the stupid, selfish, ugly king!  IM NOT SAD OH NO NO NO NO!! IM NOT MAD EITHER HAHAHAHAHA! I'm perfectly calm no worries, being pissed off is the least thing I can feel at this moment. Jealous? Bitch please! How can I when I'm better than that Komoro or Komori...whatever.....

WHY ISN'T HE FUCKING TALKING TO ME REEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHO EVEN IS KOMORO OR KOMORI?! WHO CARES IM PROBABLY BETTER AT VOLLEYBALL THAN HIM!! IM MORE HANDSOME AND CHARMING!!! WHY WOULD SAKUSA PICK HIM OVER ME HUH?! I-

Why do I even care...it's not like I wanted him as a friend anyway...I mean, he blackmailed me, called me names, and kicked me into a closet (yes I still have a grudge over that, now shut up.) He's mean, disrespectful, rude, selfish, a total jerk, stupid, the worst person, trash, no actually garbage, he should be lucky for his sexy body and face though most of the times he's kind of cute, handsome, funny, sometimes nice, really sexy, reliable at times, a fucking person comfortable to just sit by and talk to...

I miss him...

And so Astumu spent another day rotting in his closet due to the stubbornness of not wanting to see Sakusa and avoiding him as well.

The next day...

Knock knock

"CoMe In....."

"Astumu, you wanna hang with a few guys later tonight? I mean it's our last day here at the camp."

"SuRe..."
I opened the closet door.

"WOAH WHAT THE-"

"Huh? WhAt?!"

"Are you okay? I mean...you got dark circles under your eyes, and you look pretty beat up...is that why you weren't at the court?"
Kagay...COUGH said as he stared at me.

"What you mEaN? I'm fine, I'm perfectly good-"
And I fell asleep...

Ok I admit, I didn't get a single peek of sleep. My mind was too busy thinking....you know..