Phobias- Sakusa x Atsumu

Chapter 16- "Isn't love...just love?"

Atsumu POV

I stared blankly at the stoned path. I didn't know...

"I didn't know Osamu..." I whispered to myself.

"Know what?" I looked up.

"I saw you running here. You okay? Why aren't you going home?"

"Kageyama..." I stared at the dark haired boy.

"Oh now you remember my name." He rolled his eyes. "I just finished with what I needed and the next thing I knew, I saw Berry B. Benson sprinting across the empty streets to a public park."

I didn't respond and kept quiet, going back to staring at the ground. I heard Kageyama sigh and he sat next to me.

"Somethin' bothering you? Tell me, I won't say anything to anyone." Kageyama takes another big sigh.
It was silent for a while, both of us didn't say anything. All I could think of was what I just witnessed as Kageyama quietly waited.

"Well...I guess i'll go home if you won't talk, you should go home too." Kageyama stood up and grabbed his bag.

Home? How would I go home now? I just found out my brother was dating, or in a romantic relationship with his best friend...who is a guy. How am I suppose to hate a gay man..when he's my brother who was always by my side? As much as we bickered and fought, Osamu was always the one by me if shit went down. And...fuck.

"Kageyama wait." I desperately said. He turned around and I sighed.

"Something has been bothering me..."

It was silent again. It was just a hard topic for me to converse about. Finally I took a deep breathe and spoke.
"W-what...what do you think of same sex relationships?" I managed to stumble out. I waited for his answer as I saw that Kageyama was taken aback. Maybe it was a weird question to start off with? Maybe I shouldn't have asked...-

"I mean...isnt love...just love?"

I raised my head to look at him.

"If two people love each other despite being the same sex, they should be allowed to love each other...right? After all its something they can't control..."

Suddenly...a familiar curly black haired man came up in my mind. In that moment, everything appeared like he was in front of me.

I laughed.
"Wow, you sound so old, it sounds like you have experience or a lover." I joked.

"I do."

I snapped my head to Kageyama.

"WHAT?! WHEN?!" I yelled as I stood up. "I NEVER KNEW THIS, WHO?!"

Kageyama only clicks his tongue.
"Can you please shut the fuck up before officers come running down the streets!" He smacked me on the head and I stumble. I pouted and sat back down.

"Fine then." I mumbled.

It was silent again.

"They...they're someone precious to me." Kageyama let a small smile creep out. All I could think was: "Wow, Kageyama must love them a whole lot."  while rolling my eyes.

"Everytime they smiled or laugh, it feels like I shared their happiness. When they're upset or down, I feel the need to beat the crap out of whoever that hurt them."

Everything was quiet except for Kageyama. His smile became even wider the more he talked.

" I always find myself thinking of them when we're far away, or hoping to see them again. Whenever we fought, I'd feel guilty for saying harsh words and would want to talk to them again."