You're natural leader
Your words are alive, you're a dreamer babe
Your voice is like lightning and thunder
There's no man that I'd rather be under than you*
I needed time to process the fact that I was pregnant before I told Randy. Truth be told, I didn't know when this day would come so knowing that I am in fact pregnant is huge. I don't want to be one of those people who wait months before telling their partner so I have decided to sing to Randy.
Once I make it to the guest house where my music room is located, I sit at the piano and I start playing around with the keys.
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Randy will be done with work in a couple of hours so I have some time time to either make something up or figure out what song I will sing to him.
I am thirty five years old and it feels as if my life is finally coming together. I have had my career but now I am soon to be a wife and a mother, all of my dreams are coming true at once. It is slightly overwhelming but the timing couldn't be any better.
For the next hour and a half, I play around with different songs. At some point, I stop playing and I make my way back to the main house to rest because mama is tired.
"Whew chile, this baby is taking all of my energy." I say to myself as I throw myself on the bed. "It better not be like this for the whole pregnancy."
I still need to book my doctor's appointment so that I can figure out how far along I am. There is so much that I need to know and I want us to make it to full term with the pregnancy. I have never been pregnant before and I am little older so I don't know if my body is prepared for this baby.
My eyes shut as soon as my head hits the pillow and the next time that they open, I'm being shaken awake by Randy.
"Can't a girl get some sleep?" I ask just as a yawn forces its way out of my mouth.
"I got in an hour ago." Randy kisses my head. "I figured that you were pretty tired so I let you sleep but it's nearing eight and food is ready."
"You cooked?" I look up at him and he chuckles.
"I ordered pizza, I tried to cook but I ended up falling asleep which resulted in me burning our food." I can't help but laugh at his words. "Hey, I've been working all day. What have you been doing?"
I suddenly remember that I was going to reveal my pregnancy to him.
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"I'll let you know after we eat."
We head downstairs to eat at our dining table. Although we had some conversation, it was mostly a silent dinner. Nerves were eating at me about the pregnancy announcement but I don't think Randy noticed because he is tired.
"Can we go to the music room real quick?" I ask Randy as I throw the pizza box away.
Randy furrows his brows at me, "I'm kind of tired. Can it wait till tomorrow or is it urgent?"
"Just come." I grab his hand, pulling him up. "It won't be long, I promise."
Randy groans as I drag him outside where he wraps his arms around my body as we make our way into the guest house.
I clear my throat as I sit at the piano, I gesture for Randy to sit down besides me as I start to sing.
I see trees so green, red roses too I see them bloom for me and you. And I think to myself what a wonderful world.
Randy gives me a weird look, "I thought you were working on original music."
My eyes narrow and he raises his hands in surrender as I continue to sing What a Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong.
I see skies of blue And clouds of white The bright blessed day The dark sacred night And I think to myself What a wonderful world
A tear starts to slowly make its way down my face and my partner softly wipes it away.
The colors of the rainbow So pretty in the sky Are also on the faces Of people going by I see friends shaking hands Saying, "How do you do?" They're really saying "I love you"
Randy sings 'I love you' with me and I lean against his body as I continue playing.
I hear babies cry I watch them grow They'll learn much more Than I'll never know And I think to myself What a wonderful world
I stop playing the piano as I stare at the man that I love who is looking back at me with adoration in his eyes. As I sing the last two lines, I grab his hands and place them on my stomach.
Yes, I think to myself What a wonderful world
"I'm pregnant."
Randy's eyes widen in surprise as he applies pressure to my stomach and only then do I show my true emotions. I allow him to see the fear, the love and the want that I have for our child.
"We're having a baby." The words come out as a whisper but Randy hears as he presses his lips to mine. We stay like that for several moments and I only pull away when I feel the tears hitting my face.
"I'm not crying." He clears his throat before wiping his eyes. "I am crying but it's only because I'm happy."
He lovingly rubs my stomach as he presses a soft kiss to my temple.
"Are we really having a baby?" He quietly asks and I nod my head. "Ok, we are really doing this."
"Besides happy, what else do you feel?" I place my hand on his cheek as I search his eyes. "How are you feeling? You're about to be a dad for the second time."
"I'm ready to experience this with you." Randy's voice cracks and we laugh together as he rests his forehead against mine. "Fuck, we're about to bring a baby into the world."
"Our baby." I peck his lips. "Thank you for giving me my first baby."
Randy says nothing as he pulls me in for a hug and I laugh because this whole thing feels so foreign. I wanted this for so long but life doesn't always work out in your favor and we don't always get to win.
"Engaged and pregnant." Randy cups my face. "It's going to be a hectic year for us, I'll tell you that much. I don't know if I'm ready for it all but with you by my side, I know that we will sail through this."
"You don't have to be ready." I laugh.
Randy pecks my lips once more, "I love you so much."
