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Chapter 6

Camryn's POV

I wish I could say I woke up like most other people every morning. But if I did reality would probably come to bite me in the ass. My dreams were filled with memories. The ones I wish I didn't have. I woke up this lovely morning at 2 o'clock. Screaming, sweaty, and shaking. The anniversary was getting closer. So my dreams, or memories where getting worse. Almost an entire year. It's hard to believe I stayed with him after the incident. But I was young, dumb, and in what I thought was love. Or hoped anyways. When I awoke I had been shook awake by Harleigh and she stayed for an hour or two just lying down with me until I convinced her I was fine and she needed sleep. And how Abby would feel bad if she woke up without her by her side. 

I feel like a burden where I am, I'm messing things up for Harleigh and Abby by being here. I had hoped I would feel better after I left. But I am still miserable and now I am making everyone else miserable too. I know Harleigh and Abby's relationship is getting rocky with me always in the way. And I know Abby is too sweet to admit it. But I know she wishes she could be alone with Harleigh again. It's only been a week and I have been a problem for them already. 

I haven't saved up a lot but maybe I could find a roommate off craigslist or something. It wouldn't be much, I have only saved about 1800 dollars and with food, bills, and surviving I would maybe last a few months before all the money I have been saving from working at 'Hot N Cold' would be gone. Even with working. 

It's been a week since I last saw all three of the boys together. I have been busy working and crying to do anything fun. Oh well, But I do miss them, and if I could I would skip working today and just go to their house but I would end up probably just ripping off all their clothes for a distraction. But, ya know. I gotta work. 

I didn't realize how much time had passed until my 9 o'clock alarm went off interrupting my thoughts. I slammed my hand on it shutting it off and rolled out of bed. I headed to the bathroom to do my business take a shower and stuff. When I was done I went into my closet with nothing but a towel around my waist and got dressed in black ripped skinny jeans and just a plain white tee that went to my mid thigh and my black Lacey thong to complete the ensemble. And of course just my black converse. I ruffed up my hair with my towel and combed through it with my fingers and just left it to air dry. 

When I got into the kitchen the air was thick and I could see the tears on Abby's face from here. I have to leave. I don't know where but I can't be here. I refuse to split up a perfectly healthy relationship that only started to go downhill since I arrived. Neither of them have noticed my presence so the fight continued while I just stand here. "You said it would be a couple days!, I don't like the distance" Abby wailed "I know but what do you want me to do? If I were in his situation he wouldn't hesitate to help me! Hell! He has helped me more than I could have ever helped myself!" I looked at the floor not wanting to remember the time Harleigh almost took her life after her parents had sent her to conversion camp for 6 months. When she got back she was so close to ending it all. If I hadn't gotten to her Abby and Harleigh would have never met. 

"How far are you gonna let us drift apart before you realize you have lost me, and yourself?" Abby asked in a hush whisper. I wish I could just say they where perfectly fine and how Abby is being selfish. But I have never seen Harleigh so happy. I would die before I let myself ruin the happiness of Harliegh's existence. "I'll go" 

Both of their heads snapped to me, Abby still ugly crying and both of their eyes are wide and mouths are gaping. "Just give me today to pack" I smiled at them mostly to hide the rising tears that threaten to spill. One of us is already happy and I refuse to bring her life into my shit show. "Where will you go? I won't let you sleep on a park bench Cam!" Now Harleigh joined Abby in crying. I understood why she was crying she was being forced to choose between herself and her best friend since forever. "I will figure it out I always do" I left the kitchen and went back to my room. I pulled out my duffel bags out from under the bed of the guest room. I started with my closet I didn't own much to begin with but I accumulated more when I arrived here. I am glad I picked up another couple back up bags a few days after I moved here just in case something went south.