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Chapter 19 (Unedited)

Camryn POV

While Master went in the other room to 'take care' of Sir, with my permission of course. Santi and I stayed on the couch watching Dynasty and let me just say Sam is hot. Santi and I sat in silence for a bit until Master started playing with Sir. And can I just say his noises where sexy as hell. It didn't take long for me to get hard. I looked over at Santi and saw he was in the same boat as me. Santi's eyes met mine with a heavy cloud of lust. 

I may be turned on and my body definitely wants Santi, but I don't think my mind or frankly body is ready. I'm not sure if it was something in my eye or something but Santi's lust was immediately overcast by worry. Santi scooted next to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders and the other grabbed my hand. "Are you sure you are ok? Do you need me to stop Master and Onyx? If you weren't ok with it you really should have said something" Santi said and started to stand up. I quickly grabbed his hand back before he could leave. "No, no, no I'm ok with it really it's not that" I sighed, I don't even know what it is if I'm being honest. 

"It's ok to cry you know, I will always be here to hold your hand, I want you to know honey it's ok to not be ok" I broke down crying. Santi carefully picked me up and set me in his lap and started stroking my hair. Shushing me softly while he rocked me. "You know I should really go get Onyx right?" I tucked my head into his shoulder and nodded. "I know, but I feel like I've been taking all his time lately, and Sir needed him" 

Santi sighed. "Honey I need to know if you only said yes to Onyx having sex with Lucas to make up for taking all his time, which you absolutely did not" I honestly wish I had an answer to this question. Or maybe just a better one. I shrugged my shoulders and buried my face deeper int his neck. Santi sighed. "Please, just don't let go? If you let go all of it will come back and I r-really don't want to remember" I sobbed out. 

Santi POV

I don't know what to do right now. If I don't tell Onyx he will be pissed (at himself not baby boy) when he finds out, and believe me he WILL find out somehow. And if I tell him he will be well, pissed, and ashamed.  And I don't even want to think how upset Lucas will be, he is going to be so upset, he might be a hard head sometimes but he would NEVER sleep with somebodies boyfriend without their permission. Even if it is the person he has been in love with since childhood like Onyx. 

And yes, I know he has been in love with Onyx since before he even met me. It's crazy I know and if I weren't so in love with them both I would have probably left him. But I'm not normal, Lucas' and I's relationship works because we are both in love with Onyx and each other. And I know that the first time I laid eyes on Cam, my heart decided to jump off a cliff into a pool of feelings for this adorable, frail, sweet, but broken boy. He is the nicest, most selfless person, who has never had comfort and doesn't know how to ask for help. 

I wish he'd lean on me- on us a little more. But he just doesn't know how to. I don't know if I can keep this a secret or if I should even consider keeping it a secret. I came back from my thoughts by a soft snore in my ear and light breathing on my neck forming soft goosebumps across my neck and collar bone. I kissed Cam's cheeks and caressed his hair enjoying his cuddles and still softly rocking the fragile baby. I wish this sweet boy didn't have to go through all the shit he has seen. 

I think Cam needs something that Onyx can't give him right now. With my mind muddled I barely noticed Onyx walk in and sit down next me until his hand brushed Cam's hair behind his ear. "I think Cam needs something different right now" I whispered to Onyx as to not wake the sleeping baby. Onyx gave me a puzzled look but nodded anyways. I stood up readjusted Cams body so I wouldn't drop him.