Unforgettable: Part Two

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my eyes started glowing but there wasn't really much I could do since my hands were tied. she stepped back a bit and then shook it off

kayla: your glowing eyes always creep the shit out of me, so stop it!

she swung the hammer to my face, socking my cheek.

she shifted her hands back to fists and started punching me. she got multiple punches at my stomach which caused me to cough up blood.

kayla: ew gross!

she punched my face and the other two who werent holding me joined in, they pushed me down and now all of them where beating me. I felt a sharp object against my cheek, one of her friends had slit my cheek, almost my eye. someone kicked my face and at this point I was bleeding from every part of my face

hawks: hey! what the hell are you guys doing!

they all looked up and since they had masks on he couldn't tell who they were.

leslie: aw shit come on guys let's go!

they all ran off and I was left on the ground. he untied my hands and tried to help me get up but I pushed his hands away

hawks: kid! a-are you okay-

I limped, holding my stomach trying to walk away.

hawks: here let me help y-

I pushed him away

eli: leave me alone.
hawks: i'm trying to help-
eli: I don't need any help! especially not from YOU!

I knew what had happened with my mom when she was at ua, and what hawks had done. I resented him for it.

hawks: listen, what I did was wrong, I know that and i'm sorry but I was only doing my job
eli: well you did a shitty job! now leave me alone. don't ever come near me again. i'd rather die on the street than get help from someone who almost caused my mothers her death.
hawks: ...

I wiped the blood off of my mouth and limped my way home. I walked through the door and my legs stopped working, I collapsed. my parents were already asleep so I dragged myself up the stairs and went in the shower. I sat in there for a while crying and trying my hardest to not be loud. I managed to get out of the shower and put some bandages on my face and sat on my bed looking down at my hands.

eli: you're weak.

my leg started bouncing uncontrollably, I grabbed the box from my closet and opened the window to go up on the roof. I opened it and pulled out a blunt, and sparked up with my phone playing some music. I hugged my knees and buried my face into them. i reached over to my box to grab something when I felt a warm hand on my shoulder and I looked up

deku: woah there

I got startled and put it away

eli: you scared me

he sat next to me

deku: the ones from last time haven't even healed yet, and you promised you would stop cutting

I didn't look at him

eli: ...yeah well things don't always go as planned.
deku: ..what happened? why is your face all patched up
eli: ...i fell
deku: those don't look like just "a fall"
eli: ...I got jumped, okay? is that what you want to hear? the daughter of THE bakugo and THE y/n getting picked on and jumped.
deku: ...

he grabbed my wrist and examined it, I pulled it away

eli: stop being weird
deku: why are you doing this to yourself, eli
eli: ..

he took the blunt out of my hand and put it out, closing the box. I sighed and rolled my eyes

deku: you know I don't want you smoking anymore
eli: yeah yeah I know
deku: so then why do you keep doing it
eli: just butt out and go save some real lives
deku: im doing so right now
eli: im not in danger, deku
deku: one wrong slip up and you could hit a vein. you know what happens after that? you end up in the hospital, then 6 feet under. then what? huh?
eli: ..

I looked down

deku: Arely cutting is not the answer, drugs are not the answer. I know you may think it's a better solution than...other stuff.. but in the end it won't solve anything. how would your parents feel? how would kairi feel? how would I feel. knowing I could've done something.
eli: what about how i feel?!
deku: ...
eli: ...have you ever felt so hopeless that even the thought of a "tomorrow" drained you? when days feel like an endless cycle of constantly feeling nothing. emptiness, feeling completely numb. when getting out of bed feels like a chore, doing the bare minimum feels like hell.
deku: ...
eli: faking a smile all day long just to come home feeling drained. like a constant headache that makes your head feel like it's going to explode. i'm trying my best to make it through life here, I just want to be able to close my eyes, and feel okay.
deku: arely...
eli: im already dealing with kairis family thing, getting bullied, and on top of that i'm always worrying about whether or not i'm worthy of being called my parents' daughter.

I chuckled

eli: I stood up for myself today.. and I ended up like this. I cant win... in the end it's all the same. so what's the point in trying if nothing ever changes.
deku: ...I know how you feel.

I looked up at him

deku: trust me I know the feeling all too well. before getting to where I am now, I felt the same way. I got picked on, I felt hopeless, and at some point I wanted to give up on my dream of becoming a hero because I was weak.
eli: but... how did you do it — become the number one hero I mean
deku: well... it wasn't easy. I met all might, he told me to give up on my dream the same day your dad- uhh..
eli: told you to "take a swan dive off the roof of the building"

i imitated my dad, he chuckled, and scratched the back of his neck

deku: yeah.. but.. over time all might saw that I was strong even though I thought I was weak. he believed in me and pushed me to pursue my dream. soon I became relentless and didn't stop till I got what I wanted.

he looked over at me and put his arm over me, pulling me closer to him

deku: point is, I believe in you. I really do, and from the bottom of my heart, I believe you can become the next number one hero. you're not weak, you just need a push
eli: I got plenty of those today

we both laughed

deku: I love you, you got this k?

i smiled and nodded. he gave me a kiss on the forehead and helped me up

deku: i'm going to take this, and I hope you stop self harming. i'm being serious, eli

he took the box

eli: ayo? nah! I mean yes I will stop cutting but you are not taking that devils lettuce
deku: what? yes I am-
eli: no the fuck you not, that shit costed a whole lot just to be thrown away, hand it over
deku: who said i was going to throw it away?
eli: it's-

I gasped and smacked my mouth

eli: ouu girl! okay I see you!

he laughed

deku: you're just like your mom

I chuckled

eli: fine you can take it
deku: you act like you aren't going to buy more, you sneaky little lady

I laughed and he patted my head

deku: take care, say hi to your parents for me
eli: yes sir

edit: on a serious note self harm isn't a good coping mechanism. im being a bigass hypocrite for saying that but it's a serious issue that should be talked about. if you or anyone you know is self harming please talk to them. if you're self harming please talk to someone, an adult, a friend you trust, TALK TO MEEE. im always here for you guys and I want you all to know that i love you guys and i'm proud of each and everyone of you for making it this far. that being said, have a good rest of your day/night ❤️