Notes: Kageyama Angst-Tsukikage

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POV- Kageyama
I wake up to the noise of my parents getting ready. It must be super early since I'm supposed to wake up a few hours later than them.... are the pills not working anymore? Oh well.... I pretend to sleep until I hear them walk out of the door and then I walk downstairs to check the time on the clock.

Most people have phone but I don't. My parents don't take care of me. I'm only 16 and I work 3 jobs to keep alive. They don't let me eat from the house and they don't facilitate anything except for school fees to make sure the government doesn't take me as they need me as their slave.

I cook all their meals but I'm not allowed to eat, I clean the house everyday and have to make sure it's perfect or else I get punished more. I have to do their laundry and iron all of their clothes. I do their taxes and have to pay half of the rent and water, electricity and heat bills. I work and have to leave early from school some days.

It comes onto my report as wagging. My parents get annoyed that I'm missing school even though if it wasn't for them making me pay insane amounts I wouldn't be skipping school. Everyone in the volleyball club is sick of me skipping school and not playing full out. Nobody knows about my depressing life.

I decided to cook dinner early so I'll just heat it up when I get back from school and work. I make some curry with rice and pack it up. I then start to get ready for school. We have morning training today so after showering, brushing my teeth, doing my hair and covering up my bruises and scars, I walk to school with a spring in my step.

Hinata is always early so I'll get to talk to him!! Hinata is my only friend and I'm grateful that he stuck by me without even knowing about my situation. I also like being early as it means I don't run into my old teammates.

I arrive at school but then I hear Hinata talking to Sugawara. I decided to just wait and listen before interrupting but I wish I didn't.

Their Conversation

Suga- Kageyama has really been out of it Huh?

Hinata- yea but I guess it's your time to be the main setter Huh?

Suga- yea thanks to you! After you stop being Kageyama's friend, he'll be completely out of it and broken and I can take his place and finally be on the starting line up!

Hinata- thank goodness, it's been way to long having to pretend to be friends with him! His super depressed like omg- idk how to deal with him always being sad! I bet he's just looking for attention

Suga- yea he probably has the perfect life and is just looking for some attention!

Hinata- HAHAHAHA

Suga- HAHAHAHA

Hinata- ok I'll break the news to him now, he should be here soon

End of Conversation

My heart hurts. I thought that he'd always be by my side y'know? But it was stupid of me to trust anyone and think they wouldn't leave me. It is me after all.

I walk forward and smiled at both of them who are shocked that I heard them. I quietly say hello before making my way to the gym.

Practice was difficult and painful. I felt so lost and couldn't even focus on volleyball. I wish I could just go back to how I used to be before Miwa died. I wish she was still here with me.

-Time Skip-

It was last period and I was freaking out. I can't find my notebook anywhere!! I looked all over but there was no sign of it. I hope whoever has it won't read anything..... I wanted to search for longer but I had to go to work.

I got to work eventually but I was 5 minutes late. My boss was mad. I work at a restaurant, flower shop and a gym. The restaurant boss hates me but thinks I have natural talent, the flower shop boss helps me and gives me extra pay and the gym boss is just normal.

I go from the restaurant to the flower shop and felt exhausted when I finally finished work. I got home at 8:30pm and put the rice and curry on the stove, at low, to heat it up. I then went upstairs and changed to shower. I cleaned up a bit and then my parents arrived from home.

I was called downstairs and quickly rushed down. I fished for my parents hoping it was the right amount so they wouldn't get mad. My dad was in a foul mood today. They ate and finished. My mother went to sleep and my dad was drinking.

I went back to my room and decided to do some homework. Out of nowhere my dad walked into my room and smashed a plate onto my head. My head started bleeding and he was laughing. He then trudged downstairs. I went to wash up and bandage my wounds. It didn't look great and I don't know how I am meant to cover this up.

I feel anger and rage. I just want to write in my journal but I don't have it. I got out a pocket knife and started cutting my thighs over and over again. I should've stopped, I was loosing a lot of blood, but without my book, this was the only way for me to feel/express my feelings.

My life just keeps getting worse. When will this cycle of sadness end? Or do I have to end it?

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