Notes: Kageyama Angst-Tsukikage

Nobody deserves to live a life of pain

Here's an update kiddos! 🤪 I hope you enjoy this angst!!

POV- Tsukishima
Today was my least favourite day, a Thursday. We had double volleyball session, morning and after school, plus we get so much homework on Thursdays.

I slowly sat up on my bed and yawned, mentally preparing myself for today. I looked at the time and it was pretty early. I decided that I'd go to the gym early for once. I walk to the bathroom and wash up before changing into my sports uniform.

I say good morning to my mother and dad before heading out while eating an apple. I'm not really a morning eater so I usually have a fruit. I walk pretty fast as it was drizzling and I didn't feel like staying in the cold. I arrived at practice and see Kageyama eavesdropping...? I decided to stay behind him and listen to what he was listening to.

Conversation

Suga- Kageyama has really been out of it Huh?

Hinata- yea but I guess it's your time to be the main setter Huh?

Suga- yea thanks to you! After you stop being Kageyama's friend, he'll be completely out of it and broken and I can take his place and finally be on the starting line up!

Hinata- thank goodness, it's been way to long having to pretend to be friends with him! His super depressed like omg- idk how to deal with him always being sad! I bet he's just looking for attention

Suga- yea he probably has the perfect life and is just looking for some attention!

Hinata- HAHAHAHA

Suga- HAHAHAHA

Hinata- ok I'll break the news to him now, he should be here soon

End of Conversation

Yikes! I can't believe people would go so low! How can someone be so mean!? I really don't care though... right? I shouldn't care! It's the king after all I'm meant to dislike him! I huff before turning and entering the gym from the back doors. Kageyama was off and seemed to be in pain.

Practice ended and the day went on. It was boring until last period. I entered my class and found a milk notebook with Kageyama's name on it. I know there must be some good blackmail on it. Maybe about him having a crush! Or one of his fears!! I was excited to unfold whatever was in the notebook.

I then put the book in my bag before paying attention to the class. The class was boring and I already knew everything. I then go and get ready for afternoon practice. I walk in and hear everyone complaining.

"Suga should be main setter! Kageyama only shows up when it suits him and he's been completely off his game!" I hear Hinata say annoyed.

"Yes but we should ask Kageyama if he's alright before doing anything drastic!" "Yea!" Kiyoko says and I assume Yachi was the one who agreed.

"We agree with them." Ennoshita said most likely referring to Kinnoshita and Narita.

"I feel like he's been off and we need to teach him a lesson. He can't just wag and expect nothing to happen! This is discipline for our kohoai (forgot spelling)." "Yea! He needs to be taught a lesson!!" Noya and Tanaka say. It's kind of stupid because Kageyama is a literal genius so to take him off the main team is stupid.

I walk in shaking my head and everyone pays attention to me.

"What!? Why are you shaking your head saltyshima!!" Hinata yells obviously pissed.

"As much as I hate to admit it, without the King we wouldn't be such a good team so to take him off the starting line up would be asking to loose. I'm not saying you're bad Suga but I'm saying he's a genius." I say smirking. Everyone was taken aback. Hinata looked like he was going to say something but the coach walked in and we started practicing.

-Time Skip-

I arrive home and complete some homework work before I remember about Kageyama's notebook. I got excited and took out out of my bag happily. I got the cute little notebook and opened the cover.

Do Not Read. Please Return

Was written all across the inside. I was getting excited. It must be good information.

I open to the next page and my happy facial expression drops. (This will be key things that Tsukishima notices in the pages.)

Dad hit me again but badly this time... it hurt a lot...

None of this would happen if I could just be smart! Why am I such a disappointment...

I haven't eaten in a long time

I hate this world it's so unfair but I know you want me to stay strong

I almost got fired which was scary as I need my 3 jobs to live

Mum almost cut me with a knife

This journal is the only thing keeping me alive

I miss you big sis why did you have to die?

Why is the world so cruel

At least I have Hinata as my bestie

I feel so alone

People are mean.... I can't train cuz of all these bruises and cuts not because I want to make fun of Suga

I said I'd stop cutting but I can't

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

It's all my fault

If only I was good enough

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I closed the book and felt tears stream down my face. How is he going through so much by himself. How does he live in so much pain! I feel so bad. I want to- no I need to help him. Starting from tomorrow I will help him. Nobody deserves to live a life of pain.

Omfg I'm in tears 😭 it's super depressing but that's as bad as it gets so don't worry! It's not as angsty as my other story 💖