Notes: Kageyama Angst-Tsukikage

Realisations

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POV- Tsukishima
I woke up early once again to his beautiful face. It has become a daily thing for me now. It's Saturday and Tobio has now been living with us for 4 whole months. To celebrate this my mum wants to have a lunch with Tobio.

I wasn't invited as she says I'm 'always with him!'. I personally don't think it's fair but I understand that my mum wants to get to know Tobio better since they barely spend time together. Tobio also agreed to the idea and I didn't want to seem needy.

I walked out of the room after looking at his cute face- I mean his normal looking face, and walked downstairs. I saw my mum in the kitchen and kissed her cheek.

"Morning mum!" I said happily.

"Mhm, morning Kei!" She said back enthusiastically.

"You excited for you lunch with Tobio?" I asked sounding more salty that intended.

"Ahhh someone's jealous. Y'know I'm also doing this for you. It's been months since you realised your relationship with him isn't exactly normal. I think you need to think about it while we're gone for lunch. I'm pretty sure you know this, but I love you no matter what ok?" My mum sympathetically said.

I really don't wanna think about my feelings for Tobio but I know I'll have too. They're growing to fast for me to ignore them. I nodded my head before saying love you too and walking back upstairs.

Tobio walked out of the bathroom all dressed up for the lunch. He looked absolutely stunning but seeing him looking so handsome made me realise that I really need to sort my feelings out. We said our goodbyes and I told him to have fun. I walked into my room and waited for the door to shut before sighing and standing up.

I've always known I wasn't the straightest kid out there. I'd secretly stare at people's muscles and make the guys yell at me since I found it hot. I'd tried the same stuff with girls but it made me feel more annoyed and weirded out that turned on. Also on the topic of girls and boys, I don't feel like I'm either.

I've always known that I wasn't 100% a guy if that makes sense. I researched and came to the conclusion that I was a demiboy and preferred they/he/them/him pronouns to he/him. I was just to scared to come out and left it alone.

There have been countless nights where I've cried myself to sleep, not understanding why I feel the way I do. I've always dismissed these feelings and gone on with life as if I was fine. I've now made this strong wall and don't let people in. I don't know what to do anymore but I know it's time to be true to myself. I lay down on the bed and started crying.

I know I'm gay. I don't want it to be true but I know. I know I'm a demiboy, I know I prefer they/he pronouns. I know it all but it's to much for me to handle. I know all of this but I don't want to loose the only people I have left because of this.

I was crying for so long, and so loud, that I didn't hear Tobio and my mum enter the house. Nor did I hear Tobio open the door until I felt his arms rapping around my torso.

"Shhhh it's ok Kei. It'll be ok, I'm right here, I'll do anything for you. I-, I'll do anything. Talk to me Kei." Tobio whispered as my cries turned into quiet whimpers.

"Tobio, what do you think about the LGBTQ+ community?" I asked hesitantly.

"Love them, after all I am gay! I've also been confused about my gender for two years now. There's nothing wrong with us and we should all live in peace. We're just expressing ourselves the way we want to be expressed and loving who we love. There's nothing wrong with that." Tobio whispered calmly while caressing my cheek. I felt calmer after hearing his words. He's right.

"I'm a demiboy and gay as fuck! There I've said it! Hahah I've finally said it." Tears of joy started to fall from my eyes and I hugged Tobio even tighter.

"Thank you Tobs. You're a life saver." And I mean that literally....

AYYEEEE A CHAPTER DONE AGAIN! WERE GETTING TO THE END OF THIS STORY, ITS A SLOWWWW BURN ON THE ROMANCE SIDE BUT WERE FINALLY WARMING UPPPP