Notes: Kageyama Angst-Tsukikage

Hey... it's me again

Here's some lovely angst lmao enjoy the new story kiddos!! 🤪

Kageyama's Journal 🍼
Please return if found

Hey... it's me again. Today was painfully numb, like always.... I woke up in pain and could barely stand. Father beat me up pretty badly and mother cute me with some glass. Although it hurts I'd never blame them y'know? They're lawyers and I can barely pass my exams in the easy class. I try a lot, stay up at night studying but I just can't focus.

As soon as I walked down the road to school I was met by some old teammates. I know it's bad that I don't remember their names but at that time I was too caught up in volleyball and being the best. I was dragged to some alleyway and then used for someone's sexual pleasure. My ass was sore and couldn't take anymore of these peoples rough sex.

I hobbled to school and rushed to the bathrooms to fix myself up. I took a few mints to wash down the taste of cum and wiped my body. The bell goes off and I wobbled to my first class. I smiled at my only friend and only source of happiness, Hinata.

He makes everyday better. He's so happy and always cheers me up! I'm so grateful to have him. He reminds me that I can feel things and not just be numb.

I'm not really liked by my teachers and often get scolded at but today my teacher for english slapped me and said that I deserved it for being stupid. I guess I do but I'm not sure if she would be slapping people.... but I did deserve it.

I was sleepy durning practice and had no energy. My parents didn't let me eat as I'm not allowed to eat until dinner unless my grades go up. I felt dizzy but dealt with it and powered through, like everyday.

Sugawara was annoyed at me. He said that I'm taking being main setter as a joke and insulting him. The whole team was agreeing and I was forced to leave. I couldn't exactly tell them what was happening at home and with my teammates so I just listened and walked out saying bye to Hinata. I got a few concerned glances from Asahi and Tsukishima but I'm sure they'll forget about it.

That was basically my day Miwa. I miss you everyday and wish you could come back.... nothing has been the same since you.... you got into that crash. I miss you so so much.... I know you'd always tell me to stay strong but- I'm struggling.... would it be so bad if I went to your place....? I'm sure it's more peaceful up there but I'm going to hang on, for you Miwa.

As always I just want you to know that you were the best sister ever.

It's getting late and I can barely sleep but I'll force myself to by taking those sleeping pills. Thank you for the secret stash of money you left me.... although it's slowly running out I'm using it for the pills and I get 3-5 hours of sleep now!

I should sleep to get ready for tomorrow. I'll write to you later. I hope you can see this. Love Tobio.

For those who don't understand the chapter, it's what Kageyama wrote about the day in his notebook which is really his coping mechanism. In this story not all of it will be written in the notebook but the notebook plays a big roll, I hope you enjoyed the new chapter.