Forever and Always

sixteen // amelia's speech

Hi,

I, uh… I never thought this day would come, the day that I would have to so goodbye to my sister.

Lisa was beautiful. She had the most beautiful eyes that were always lighting up when she spoke. And my goodness did she have a beautiful laugh. It was a contagious laugh and I know all of you agree with me on that. Most of the time you may have found yourself laughing at her rather than the joke. She found the smallest things amusing, that may or may not be where I get it from and I’m completely ok with that.

I have always admired the way she cared about everyone. I’d sometimes wish I could be like that. Heck, I always wished I could be like her. I don’t usually envy but when it came Lisa, I envied everything about her. Not in a bad way, it was in the way she was everything I wanted to be, starting from her personality to the lifestyle she had. No one is perfect but to me Lisa was. She was the perfect mother, the perfect daughter, the perfect sister and the perfect human. In my eyes she’s never done wrong, only good.

Which is why I ask myself: why did this happen to her? Why did God take her away? Why did he take away the one thing that made me happy? Why did she have to go so terribly?

Lisa will live on in our memories and hearts.

And please, for Lisa, don’t cry. I say this because she told me once that she didn’t want people to cry at her funeral. She wanted and she wants you to smile at the life she had. Smile at the memories she’s given you.

Clearly, I’m not exactly fulfilling her wish for us to be smiling because I haven’t stopped crying since the day I lost her. I guess she didn’t know how much she truly meant to me then and now.

But Lisa, if you’re here with me right now, I love you… I love you so much. I wish you could be with me right now. I wish I could hear your laugh and see your smile. And I wish I could feel you.

Wait for me ok?

I love you.

Forever and always my beautiful sister.

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Well this was actually the hardest thing I've had to write.....i think i have retyped this a million times lol. So i apolgozie for how short it is and how terrible this speech was haha. Sorry Amelia :P But the next chapter is being written now since this is not a proper chapter.... :D