FATE🖤/M.Y.G ff

Chapter 4:Warmth of the sunshine

Your P.O.V:
I unlocked the door and went inside. Closing the door behind me I dropped my bag on the floor and threw myself on the bed without bothering to change my clothes. Just when I closed my eyes my phone rang inside my pocket. I groaned and pulled out the phone. The caller id is unknown but it's a foreign number. A tired smile crept on my lips as I received the call.
"Hobi....!", I exclaimed trying my best to hide my exhausted voice.
"Hey Y/N!How have you been? You sound tired", his voice sounded quite worried.
" I'm fine. Just a bit tired.How about you? You didn't call me forever", I pouted as if he could see me.
"I'm so sorry Y/N-ah...I was just too busy. You know all the damn business stuff..it's just too disgusting", he said sadly.
"Hey, I can understand. I know you don't wanna take over your dad's business, but you can't make him upset either, right?", I comforted him with a soft tone.
" Yeah...It's just so lonely here. I can't even stay here for few days, how am I supposed to live here and run the business?", he was disappointed.
"Hoseok-ah.I know you're so young to do this. Just hang in there a little longer, just a week. Then you'll come back to our country and you'll be able to come to school again, right? We'll hang out like old times and have a lot of fun!", I tried to cheer him up.
"Yes. I miss you so much, Y/N".
"I miss you too, my sunshine. Don't worry. I believe one day your dad will understand you and let you do what you want", I said softly.
"Thanks for comforting me, Y/N-ah...I feel better now", he chuckled.
"Aigooo~there's my sunshine", I giggled.
"Oh! I almost forgot. Have you met Manager Kim?", he asked curiously.
"Manager Kim?", I tried to remember where I heard that name." Oh! that man. How do you-", just when I recalled the whole job offering incident from earlier, I could instantly get the fact that who was the man that told Mr.Kim about me.
"It was you, wasn't it?", I asked smiling.
" What was me?", he tried to act innocent.
"Hobi!!"
"Ok ok..yes I told him about you. I mean, you needed a job and he needed an employee. It's a win-win situation. It's not like I'm helping you or something. I was just-
" Hobi, It's okay. I know you wanted to help me. And actually, thanks! I like the job!", I assured him as he was already panicking to get scolded by me.
"Really?? Thanks Y/N!I'm so happy that finally, I can help you. And I assure you that you'll definitely like him. He's a good kid".
" You know him?"
"Oh yes! He's one of my really good friends. He might be a little grumpy at first, but he'll get used to the situation and be friendly to you gradually".
" Well, I'm looking forward to it", I sighed.
"When will you be joining? "
"Mr.Kim told me to go tomorrow after school. I'm quite nervous though", I chuckled nervously.
"Oh don't be! You can do this! It's not that hard!"
"Yeah, I know. I'm just afraid that he might not like me and accept me as his tutor. We're only two years apart!"
"So what? Look I'm also two years elder than him. But he respects and loves me as an elder brother", he said assuring me.
"Mhmm...thanks for your support, Hosoek-ah..", I uttered softly.
" Yah! What's with that serious voice? ", he shouted.
" I mean it. You really are a blessing to me. I never expected someone to be by my side as a trusted friend. I never had any friends.No one has ever liked to be my friend. But you accepted me along with all my secrets, my facts, my problems, my obstacles. I really don't know how I can ever repay you-
"Lee Y/N, that's enough. I'll fuckin' sue your damn mouth if you say anything about being grateful to me again. And I mean it!", he raised his voice this time.
" Hm", I weakly hummed in response.
"Y/N", he said softly," I don't think of you only as my best friend. You are my sister and I've always treated you like my own sister. Though I always feel guilty for not being able to help you through your sufferings as you don't let me help you saying that you can do it by yourself, I always try my best to help you in any way I can. Sometimes I feel so hurt Y/N, I keep asking myself why you don't let me help you? Is it me who's making you uncomfortable? Why do you feel like you're gonna be indebted if I help you? Why can't you consider me as your family?", his voice was shaking.
Tears made their way as I started speaking, "Hoseok-ah...I'm so sorry for hurting you. I never thought that you feel this way. I didn't mean to hurt you. I wasn't pushing you away. I just-I didn't want you to bother it. I know you don't think of me as your burden, but I feel so worthless for not being able to handle my problems and drag you in it. You have your own problems as well. You're already having a hard time. It might make you feel at ease if you help me with your money, but I'll never be able to be at peace. Trust me, It'll keep bothering me until my last breath. I don't wanna live like that. Please don't misunderstand me..please Hobi..I don't wanna lose you too..you're just..so precious.. ", I couldn't talk anymore as I was sobbing so hard.

"Hey..Y/N...calm down please...did I make you cry? Please don't cry my cotton candy. I'm sorry, Y/N.I can understand what you feel and I'd never ever leave you alone. I promise I won't. So don't be afraid ok?"
"Hm...", I hummed.
" Have you stopped crying? I can bet you look like a fluffy tomato right now!"
"Yaa!!"
"Ok, my ice cream girl is back now! I promise I'll make it up for making you cry. Just hang in there a little longer. We'll go for a whole day hang out once I come back okay?"
"Yeah.. I love you, bud".
"Love you more, cotton candy. Well, we're apparently talking for an hour now. I think It's past your bedtime. Sorry dear, I didn't really think about the time as It's morning here", he said in an apologetic tone.
" It's okay, Hobi. I really needed this conversation. It's been hell for the last two days and this conversation really helped a lot".
"Why? What happened? Why you didn't tell me anything?", I could clearly imagine him raising his eyebrows.

Shit! I shouldn't have brought that shit up. He should not know anything about this! I must cover it!

" Y/N I'm asking you something", he said coldly.
"Eh?".Think Y/N think! "Oh, that? Well, that's nothing serious. I just got scolded by my boss, you know the owner of the coffee shop, right? He's quite a bad-tempered guy. He even threatened to fire me. But eventually, I handled the situation", I tried my best to sound normal with the half-truth statement. Just the firing part was made up. I mean, I need to survive so I guess this little lie won't hurt.
"Are you sure that's all? You're not hiding anything? ", he was still suspicious.

You must not mess it up, bitch.Say something before the catches you!

"Yah Jung Hoseok!Stop behaving like a possessive elder brother! We're the same age you know. Besides this character doesn't suit you", I said sarcastically.

"Well, I can't help it. Especially when I have an idiot sister like you", he teased me.

Thank goodness! You survived Y/N.

"Yah! Don't call me that!", I pouted.
" You're pouting I can bet", he smirked.
"You're smirking I can bet", I mimicked.
"Ok enough with this guessing game. You need to sleep now, Y/N.Don't stress yourself by staying up late. I'm gonna hang up okay?"
"Yeah..bye..see you soon!"
"Good night, cotton candy!"
"Good night, sunshine! "

He hung up. I turned over and faced the ceiling. Hoseok is my best friend. We first met when I was in elementary school. Apparently, he's the only witness of my shattered life. His dad is one of the most successful businessmen in Korea as well as Asia. Hobi has always been the person with the brightest smile ever since I first met him. He was the only person who approached me with that smile that remained unchanged even after witnessing the dramatic events of my life. He was always by my side. When I and my dad moved out of our own house after the traumatic event I had witnessed, when my dad had to admit into hospital, when I was sick but couldn't take care of myself because I had to take care of my Dad,  when I needed a shoulder to cry-he was always there for me. He never hesitated to do anything for me ignoring the fact that he's the son of one of the richest people in Korea and I'm just a poor girl struggling for survival. The only thing he could never do for me is supporting me with his money because I never let him do so.No matter how many hardships I had, I never asked for money from him neither let him give me that. I never befriended him for his money. Some mean people spread that rumor which broke my heart into pieces.No wonder he was quite popular among girls and I was the only girl who was that close to him. This made them furious and they spread those filthy rumors about me. Hoseok didn't know about any of these rumors which made him wonder why I don't want him to help me. I know it hurts him, but I can't let his money win over our friendship. I just want him by my side, not his money. There were times when he didn't listen to me though, he even gave his number to the hospital's receptionist and told her to call him whenever they need my dad's hospital bills in spite of my yelling. But I changed my dad's local guardian information when he wasn't around and put my number in it. I told them to keep it a secret from him. That's why he didn't know anything about whatever happened for the last two days and I wanna keep it that way. Besides, I don't want him to know what happened between me and Yoongi in the hotel. They're quite good friends and I don't wanna ruin their friendship. I don't know why Yoongi did that to me, but I know one thing, if Hoseok gets to know anything about it, he won't hesitate to beat the hell outta Yoongi. I'm not gonna let that happen.

 After all...they are both too precious to me.

 Yes, you heard it right.

I still love him...Min Yoongi..you're my first love and I'll protect you.No matter what.