Dan.is.not.my.boyfriend!

Taking the Pain Away

*Aprils P.O.V*

I sat at the window seat next to Dan on the way home. I pulled out my headphones and laid back in the taxi seat. After a couple cheesy (but catchy) songs, I stepped out of the car and ran into the house. I pulled Caleb aside into my bedroom and locked the door. I clenched my fists and bit my lip as I sat down on the edge of my bed. 'Whats wrong babe?' Caleb asked nervously. 'I think you know exactly what's wrong.' I said as the tears started streaming down my face. I pulled him over and pointed to his collar. 'Ummmmm...' Caleb started. 'Just save it.' I screamed, sobbing. I ran into the bathroom and locked the door, just sobbing on the cold floor tiles. 'April, come out!' Caleb shouted. 'Please, just leave me alone.' I cried. I heard Caleb's footsteps get quieter as he headed down the hallway.

Why does everything have to go wrong with me? Why doesn't anyone care about me? Why can't anyone love me? I thought I would never be able to stop crying. I looked in the mirror and gasped. My mascara was running down my face, my hair was turning frizzy, and I was starting to break out. I understand why Caleb wanted someone else. I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm stupid, I'm worthless.

I opened up the bathroom cupboard and found some shower gel, a loofa, a couple sticks of deodorant, my anti depressants and an old razor... Caleb said it took the pain away. Maybe it will take the pain away for me. A slash for being ugly, a slash for being stupid, a slash for not loosing weight, a slash for being worthless, a slash for Caleb, a slash for whoevers lipstick that was, and a slash for all the people that I love but have to say goodbye to. By this time I lost count of the slashes I had painted on my wrists. It stung like hell, but a good sting. I started feeling light headed, suddenly everything went black. The last thing I remember is my head crashing to the ground, and the blade falling out of my hand...

*Calebs P.O.V*

I sat in the living room nervously. Trying to concentrate on some wedding programme Hope had put on. After about half an hour, I still hadn't heard the bathroom door click open. I tiptoed down the hallway and tried to open the door, but it wouldn't budge. I put my ear against the door, silence. Okay, this is getting scary now. I pushed and pushed and pushed. Eventually, I slammed the door open with my elbow, oh no. 'GUYS! COME HERE REALLY QUICK. AND CALL AN AMBULANCE!!!' I shouted. Hope, Dan and Phil ran in quickly. Hope nearly dropped her phone. On the bathroom floor, April was lying there uncontious in a pull of her own blood and tears. And next to her, was a blade. Hope spoke to the operator as Dan and Phil lifted April up and waited at the door to load her onto the bed.I stood at the bathroom door, just looking at the remaining blood on the floor tiles.

~Hey guys. As promised hears a second chapter of the day. Stay tuned to find out if Aprils gonna be alright. See ya soon, bye guys. Aimee xxx~