Never to love again - girlxgirl

Never to love again - girlxgirl Chapter 6 Things fall apart

2 years later.......

Lacey had been in the police force for just over a year now and she was quickly becoming well known amongst her colleagues as a no nonsence type of girl who wasn't afraid of anyone or anything.  I was proud of her achievements and the hard work she put into her job.  It was difficult on our relationship of course as her working hours were irregular and often involved night shifts and call outs at the most impossible times.

But.....something was bothering me lately.  Lacey seemed distant and our love making had become somewhat non-existent, which for Lacey was reall unusual, she thrived on sex and we rarely went longer than two or three days without some form of sexual contact.  I kept asking her if something was wrong but she laughed off my concerns and stated that she was just a little stressed at work and tired from all the extra hours she had put in lately.

I had a sneaking suspision that Lacey was messing around again, but there was no way I could prove it and pressurising her about it just ended up in a huge argument between us.  "Why do you have to always be so paranoid Julia?" Lacey yelled at me.  "I told you already, there's no one else and I love only you!"  She stormed off to the kitchen to get a drink and flopped down on the couch again.  "Why would I mess around when I have you Lovey."

I let it go, but I wasn't stupid.  In the 4 years we had been together I had learnt to read the signs when it came to Lacey's penchant for fooling around.  I really wanted to believe her, but I knew better.

We were planning on trying artificial insemination for our first child in the next month or so but I was still concerned about our relationship though.  I knew I could bring up a child on my own if need be and had already discussed the possibility my family.  They had never accepted my lifestyle that I had chosen and, secretly, I think my mother was hoping that my 'straight' hormones would kick in if I was pregnant and that I would decide to settle with a man and get married.  'Like that was ever gonna happen,' I chuckled to myself.

Our best friends and my stepsister had invited us out for a barbeque and I was excited at the prospect of getting out of the house and spending some quality time with Lacey again.   Hopefully I would also be able to forget about our earlier conversation and relax a bit for a change.

We arrived at our friends' house a little after 7pm and the party was already in full swing.  Lacey and I knocked back a few drinks and enjoyed the company of our friends as we sat in their jacuzzi and shared funny stories about all the times we had spent together as friends.  It was getting late and I really wanted to go home, but Lacey was in a party mood, so I decided to go lie down on one of the beds and wait for her to finish partying. 

I lay there for about an hour but I couldn't sleep.  Eventually I decided to go look for Lacey to find out if she was ready to go home yet.  I walked into the games room and my eyes nearly popped out of my head.  Lacey was locked in a passionate embrace with my stepsister in the jacuzzi while our 'best friends' looked on unfazed.

"What the fuck!" I yelled as Lacey quickly pulled away from Janey.  She got out of the jacuzzi as I ran out the front door and proceeded to chase me down the road.  "Julia wait!" she yelled after me.  "I'm so so sorry Lovey, please just slow down so we can talk about this."

"Talk about what?  You, lying, cheating, skanky bitch!" I spat back at her.  "I'm so sick of this bullshit!  We're supposed to be starting a family and getting married soon and you're fucking around with my stepsister!"  I cried as tears rolled down my cheeks.  "All this time that I've been asking you to be honest about your cheating and you've had the audactiy to accuse me of being paranoid and suspicious for no reason at all.  I knew there was something going on with you!  How could you do this to me......AGAIN!"  I was furious and I just wanted to go home and forget this evening had ever happened.  I knew deep down in my heart that that would never happen though.  That image of Lacey kissing Janey would be burned into my memory like a photograph for the rest of my life.

"I swear to you Julia, your're the only one I love,"  Lacey responded rather weakly.  "I can't explain why I do the things I do sometimes.  I don't want to lose you please."

Were those words supposed to make me feel any better?  Because they sure as hell didn't.  I grabbed the car keys from Lacey and we drove home in silence.  My heart was breaking and I had no idea where to turn at this point in my life.  We had bought everything, including our home together and I couldn't just walk out now, to be honest I still loved her more than anything in the world and I didn't want to lose her.

Hey everyone, sorry it's so short but it's Christmas Day and I'm rather tired and completely stuffed from eating Christmas lunch at my sister's house.  I promise the next chapter will be longer and will start making some serious twists.