Never to love again - girlxgirl

Never to love again - girlxgirl Chapter 9 Welcome home Linkin

After what had felt like years, the day of Linkin's birth had arrived.  I entered the hospital at 5am in the morning with Lacey at my side.  We checked in and waited patiently for our doctor to arrive.  We were third on the list of caesarians for the day and so we settled into my room and chatted nervously as we watched the clock on the wall every five minutes, waiting impatiently for my turn to be wheeled to theatre.

I was as nervous as hell, but at the same time I was excited to see how my little miracle would look when he was born.  Lacey paced anxiously up and down the narrow corridor and sent out texts to all our family and friends every few minutes to keep them updated on our progress.  A catheter had been inserted and my pubic area shaved in preparation, not the most comfortable thing I've ever experienced!

At last, one of the nurses entered the room and told me that the doctor and theatre were waiting.  I was wheeled down the corridor and into the operating theatre.  Lacey held tightly onto my hand and I looked at her concerned.  She was a bundle of nerves and I was afraid that she might pass out during the delivery.  But, she assured me she was fine and smiled at me reassuringly as they injected my back with the spinal block.  5 minutes later, I was paralyzed from the waist down and the operation could begin.

I felt rather uncomfortable as the doctor and nurses pushed and pulled on my stomach and though I couldn't really feel anything, it was rather frightening not knowing what was being done to my body.  After several minutes, the doctors pulled out my son and I heard his first cries as he let everyone know he had joined us.  It was the most beautiful sound I had ever heard and I could see the tears in Lacey's eyes as she watched them clean him and wrap his tiny body in a receiving blanket. 

I looked around the room, nervously waiting for them to bring me my son so that I could have my first glance at him.  He was beautiful, with a dark olive complexion and blue eyes.  He weighed 2,9kg and his head fitted perfectly into my small hand.  I smiled lovingly down at him, "Hi Linkin," I cooed as he looked up at me curiously.  "So you're the one who's been kicking me in the ribs for the past couple of months?  You've got quite a kick on you for such a small little fellow."  I laughed.

Shortly after our brief meeting, Linkiin was taken from my arms and wheeled away to the nursery to be cleaned properly and dressed.  Lacey followed after them and was given the priviledge of giving him his first bath and dressing him.  The doctors finished sewing up the cut and I was taken back to my room where Lacey was waiting for me with Linkin in her arms.  It was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen and I knew that this moment would stay with me forever.

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After two very uncomfortable days in hospital, Linkin and I were allowed to go home.  I couldn't wait to get home and settle Linkin and have some privacy with Lacey as well.  As soon as we arrived, Lacey settled me in bed and brought Linkin into the room so that I could cuddle with him.  She was amazing and took care of everything, allowing me to recover and spend time with our precious baby boy.

The next day, everyone arrived at our house to come meet Linkin.  They took turns to hold him and oohed and aahed at his gorgeous little face and tiny fingers and toes.  He sucked on his dummy and watched all the girls with wide eyes until he became sleepy and started crying.  Lacey took him and rocked him gently as he fell asleep peacefully in her arms.  I had never been so content or happy at that moment as I watched Lacey taking care of our baby. 

Everyone left soon after Linkin fell asleep and Lacey and I lay on our bed with Linkin lying snuggly between us.  "He's so beautiful," Lacey whispered quietly.  "I love you so much Julia and I'm so happy that we have Linkin in our life.  I promise you that I will always love you and Linkin and that I will do everything in my power to keep you happy and safe."

Hey everyone, sorry it's such a short update, but I've just gone back to work this week and it's been really hectic.  I'll try to update again soon.  Sorry if there's any errors, I haven't had a chance to edit this yet.