Unfolded

13

It's been a good minute since I have seen my mom. Not because she hasn't been trying but because I keep rejecting coming over. She had the baby. She named it Blue I really don't know how to feel. I didn't come to the baby shower or anything that pertained to that sort. I'm still not speaking I only talk to a few people and it's my counselor and mama T.

She hasn't done anything to me and I shouldn't even be mad at her for something her daughter did. Mama T NEVER lied to me. She would just tell me to either do some research or ask some family. Since she's one of the few people I communicate with I decided to basically spend my spring break with her.

Actually right now she's talking to me about my mom but I zoned her out because I can give zero fucks about that woman and what she got going on

"-jasmine are you even listening"

"Huh?"

"Get your head out ya ass girl and listen to me"

"I was you said something about a color"

She just shook her head, "I said you should go visit blue"

"Exactly I was listening"

"Your sister blue"

"I don't have one of those" I said with a straight face

She sighed, "don't hold your sister accountable for what you and your mom-"

"She's not my mom"

"Jasmine you've spent years trying to find and understand the truth and now that you know you don't want to accept it and actually be with your mom?"

"She was never my mom. Gave birth to me? Yes. Raised me? No"

"Physically? No. But she did influence a lot-"

"I have mommy and daddy issues what a great influencer" I smiled

"No. You're misunderstanding what I'm saying"

"I don't want to talk about this"

She just stared at me, "okay well imma hate to do this"

I furrowed my eyebrows, "do what?"

She got up and grabbed a phone and called someone. She told them to come in. Right now we are sitting on the back porch on a swing bench looking out at the pool and forest behind it. She came and sat back down. Soon the back door opened and in walked bey with a car seat.

I rolled my eyes grabbing anything to distract me from her

"Hey mama" she said

"Hey. Awwweee look at blueberry isn't she precious!"

"She's not that cute" I mumbled

It got silent.

"Jasmine come see her" mama T said

I didn't respond.

Before I knew it she pinched me

"Owwweee"

"U respond when I speak to you Tinamarie"

"Yes ma'am" I mumbled

I heard a slight chuckle, "oh so you do speak"

I looked over at her and rolled my eyes.
She pinched me again.

"Oweeee grandma!" I looked at her shocked

"Stop being rude and chy I barely touched you" mama t said

"Uh uh you hurt me. Child abuse"

"Shut up" was all she said before going inside. Leaving me and bey to ourselves. Bey grabbed a chair and sat about 7ft away from me with a car seat facing her. I heard a small whimper and looked over and seen her holding a small little piece of shit. I rolled my eyes