I Wish I Was Special

Chapter 32

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Next morning, I woke up with to the beautiful sun. Birds were singing a long.

Andrew still didn't send me some messages. But, I could talk to Char.
Andrew was really busy with tasks from his college.

4 hours later...

I walked alone around Liverpool and I was such a depressed girl but, Andrew didn't want me to be the saddest girl. I kept strong.

I went to McDonald's alone.
It was a place where I put the Ice cream on his face. I walked to the park alone and I sat on the bench where I sat with Andrew. I turned on the music on my phone, I listened to 'Martin Garrix - Wizard' to stop being sad.

Then, there was this music came,
'Ed Sheeran - Photograph'
Wait.. Photograph?
I went to my camera roll just wanted to see every pictures with Andrew.
Gosh, I miss him so much.
I started crying but I had to try smile.
No, Andrew taught me how to be positive.

An old man had a sit beside me as I removed my tears.
He asked me with his British accent, "You remind me of my daughter when she was at your age." I was confused, "Excuse me?" He looked at me, "Yeah, she used to be alone in here." He pulled out his cigarette and he started smoking, then he continued, "When she was 18. She broke up with her boyfriend and she wanted to be alone. Luckily, I found her sit here alone!"
I asked him, "How old is your daughter now?" then he answered, "She is 42!" I smiled, "Oh."

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Why was I such a depressed girl?
I've been lonely.
Lea went to Oxford in London.
Jason went to Southampton Solent University with Annie and Rose.
Andrew went to University of Manchester.

Me?

I went to visit Ruby's house.
I knocked the door and then Ruby opened it. It was raining.

I sat in the living room with Ruby,
"Ruby, can I tell you something?"
She nodded and said, "Oh, sure. What is it?"
I was nervous to tell about this but I believed her, she wouldn't tell about this to my parents.
"I had sex with Andrew." I bite my lip and she got her eyes bigger, "What? Are you serious?" I nodded and continued, "Please don't tell this to my parents, Ruby!" and then Ruby said, "I won't! You must be a part of that family!" I smiled, "Thank you, Ruby!"

I walked home alone. It was 7.22 pm.
The rain stopped.

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The next day, I went to the park again alone. I sat on the bench where I sat with Andrew. Then, I started writing a poetry. Oh, there were birds singing a long.

Relationship is like the hummingbirds
Spread their wings
Above the sky
Learn to fly
From the ground until the clouds
But,
When they fall
They know how to compromise
With pain, anger and cry
So,
They learn from it's
And set the wings against anything

I got done writing my poetry but, it looks stupid. I listened to 'The Best I ever Had - Gary Allan' I was crying over this song.

9 hours later...

Char phoned me again,
"I miss you! Did you get a message from Andrew?"
"No. He is busy right?"
"Yeah. I will help you."
"Thanks!"
"Good luck for studying in Beijing, Jess!"
"Aw, Thank you!"

I went to the vine app to cheer me up.
I scrolled down through Jake Paul's page on vine. He is funny too.
I laughed on every vines he posted.

I was super tired. Then I fell asleep.

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Damn, It was the last day in Liverpool.
I had to pack my stuffs.
I would miss everything I had in Liverpool. Molly, I miss her. She hugged me and said sorry at the graduation day. She said she is going to Brooklyn College in New York City. Yeah, in America. But, I wouldn't come back to America.

I packed every stuffs I had in my wardrobe. Then, my dad walked in to my room.
"Jessie." I looked at him as he closed the door and I answered him, "Yes?"
"Stay safe in Beijing!"
My dad reminded me so much of Andrew the way he said it.
I ran to my dad and I hugged him. I started crying, "Dad... The words you said... The words you said reminds me of Andrew!"
Then, my dad saw me crying and he smiled, "Really? He said like that too? Where is he right now?" he asked and I still cried, "He is... He... He is in Manchester, Dad." My dad embraced me and he said, "Yeah, I still like him so much." I faked a smile and I pulled out of my paper that I wrote a poetry under my pillow. I showed him and he read it carefully.

I asked him, "What do you think?"
he smiled at me and he said, "Jessie! This is really amazing!" He hugged me.

In the evening as the last day in Liverpool,
I walked to the park and wrote a new poetry. There were birds again singing along, "Hi, birds!"

I started writing,

Boy...
Stay by me
Stay with me
Stay there for me
Until I could no longer afford to take care of you

Boy...
The laughs
The smiles
The joys
Will always forever in my heart and my mind

I suck at making a poetry but, when I was in elementary the teacher said I'm good at writing a poetry.

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