I Wish I Was Special

Chapter 18

Also my thoughts and prayers to Paris, stay safe. It's so sad what happened in Paris. ❤️

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I got in his house and I saw Alfie sleeping on the couch.
Andrew woke him up, "Wake up, there is Jessie!" it was cute seeing Alfie sleeping then he woke up.

I laughed and Andrew took me to his room, his room was on upstairs and next to Alfie's room.

I was standing at Andrew's door and he sat on his bed. Andrew's room had a lot of Coldplay and Maroon 5 posters on the wall. I asked him, "Are you a fan of Maroon 5?" "Yeah. You don't like them?" he asked, I laughed and I answered him, "I'm the biggest fan of Maroon 5 too!" he smiled, "I've never seen Maroon 5 live though I'm a fan of Maroon 5. Well, Why are you standing there?" he asked. I was shy and I couldn't sit next to him, you know.

I liked him and maybe he liked me too. I sat on his chair and he had a table for him studying in his bedroom.

I heard someone knocked the door, "Andrew! Andrew! Who are you with? I hope you're not with Molly!" that was Char's voice.

Then he opened the door and Char saw me, "Oh my Gosh. Jessie!" she came closer to me and she smiled. I hugged her.

Char had a seat on Andrew's bed so I was next to her, "Remember when I gave you the school name?" then I answered her, "Yeah" then she smiled and said, "Yeah, I finally found a best friend. You're the only best friend for me. I don't have friends at college, I only have one and that's you.

Thanks to Andrew who took you to this house because I asked him. I miss you." She smiled, "Yes, I miss you too" I said, "Well, are you hungry? I can cook for you." She asked as I turned around and saw Andrew was shirtless.

Oh my God! my eyes just got wide. I turned around and continuing the conversation I had with Char, "No, I'm not hungry. Thanks, Char! Well, I like this house and this is such a very beautiful house." I said and she smiled, "Really? Thank you! I have to cook for dinner because our parents are coming tonight." She left me with Andrew.

I saw Andrew and he was still shirtless, "That's... That's... That's not good showing your abs in front of me!" he got a confused look and said, "What? Every boys do it all the time and I like girls. Not only British boys do that, Jessie!" then he smiled.

Yes, he is right because my ex-boyfriend, Thomas always showed his abs in front of me when we were together.

I saw him and he was still shirtless, what did he want? I wanted to leave this house right now. He took his uniform trousers off in front of me but I pretend didn't see him, I stared out of the window. I saw him in boxers now.

I got up from his chair and was about to leave his room. I didn't want to hurt him, I felt like Elsa. He saw me walking to his bedroom's door and he suddenly said, "Are you going to leave?" I liked this boy so much, I didn't want him to get mad because I wanted to leave this house, I didn't turn around and I said, "Yes." Seriously, did I just say yes to him? I felt like I hurt him, "Are you talking to the wall? Turn around, I'm right here." He said the way his British accent teased me, I turned around and he didn't smile at all.

I hurt him.

Andrew crossed his arms and he sat on his bed, "sit!" he patted the bed, he wanted me to sit beside him.

I didn't want him to do anything on me, just no. I didn't want to get kicked out of house and school like Ruby.

Andrew looked at me and asked me, "What do you think about England?"
I smiled on him and he smiled too, "This is such a beautiful country and I love England! Anyway, I like the accent too!" I said. I looked at his beautiful eyes the way he looked at me and then he asked me again, "Do you have a boyfriend?" What a stupid question! I answered him, "I had and he was the first and last boyfriend of mine!" I said.

He asked me again while he was smiling, he had perfect teeth, "Why did you break up?" I rolled my eyes because I hate this question so much, "He cheated on me, Andrew." I mentioned his name so he smiled.

Why the hell he was doing the Questions and Answers?

3 weeks later...

In math class, I hate this lesson so much. I suck at math!
Andrew seemed smart at math but I needed a help from him, but I was too awkward. I've never been good at math, I hate math so much. What if he liked a girl who loved math so much?

Molly came to Andrew and she asked him how to solve this problem. I became jealous and jealous.

I was afraid for asking a help to my math teacher, Andrew and anyone else.

Whenever the teacher gave us the example and I still didn't get it.

Andrew loved math so much. But, me? I only enjoyed english so much because Mrs. Julia was my favorite teacher and she had a kind hearted.

On a break time...

Everyone left the classroom, I was sitting alone there like an idiot.

I tried to get out of this classroom, then I saw Andrew had fun with Molly. He smiled a lot to Molly, jealous? Of course.

Andrew called her a slut when Molly called me a slut on the first day of school. But, why Andrew smiled a lot to Molly now?

I liked Andrew.

I walked through Andrew and Molly that I wanted to be alone in the toilet.
Andrew didn't see me and call me.

I felt invisible.

I had so many thoughts in my head, I felt like I wanted to commit suicide here in the toilet but what if there was a janitor?

You're very stupid, Jessie.
You're such a loser!
You're bad at math!
You're a loser so that's why Andrew likes Molly.
I hate you, Jessie.

I cried in the toilet like an idiot.

You're just like a baby!
Still crying
and you're such an idiot, Jessie.

Andrew doesn't like you because you're stupid and such a loser!
Kill yourself, Jessie!
Andrew hates you!
Andrew likes Molly a lot than you.

I saw myself in the mirror, I bullied myself.

Jessie, you can't have Andrew!
You're STUPID, UGLY AND A SLUT!
KILL YOURSELF, JESSIE!

I slapped my cheeks 5 times and my cheeks turned red. I pulled out my pill.

There was a girl coming in so I put it back to my blazer's pocket.

I washed my face and then the girl asked me, "Are you still sleepy?" then I looked at her and I answered her, "Yes, I am. That's why I washed my face"

I left the toilet and the bell rang.
I was in History class. I hate this lesson too.

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