I Wish I Was Special

Chapter 20

I hate school. I hate those goblins at school... ops, i mean my teachers lmfao

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I finished eating the burger and I left McDonald's with Andrew.

We were still standing outside but I had to leave Andrew, I walked a bit then Andrew called me, "Don't go alone! It's dangerous in England too, Jessie!" I turned around and he continued, "Well, I will walk with you. Anyway, I wonder how your house looks like."

We arrived at my house and his eyes got bigger, he looked cute.

"Is this your house? I can't believe this!" He asked, "Yes, let's get in" I said.
I know my new house is big than I had in Oklahoma.

Just because I have a big house in Liverpool doesn't mean I'm rich as Ruby. Ruby bought this house for us.

I walked in and there was my mom watching tv. I asked Andrew to wait in the living room because I had to change.

When I walked to downstairs, Andrew was left this house but I only saw my mom watching tv.

I asked my mom, "where is he?" she didn't see me because she focused her eyes on tv and she answered me, "He left." What did my mom do to him? Did she kick him out of this house.

I turned my face into sad and she continued, "I kick him out."
I was right. Then I went to my bedroom for crying.

My mom didn't want me to have a friend here? Then, it's okay.

She came into my room, she saw me crying. She grabbed my shoulder but I didn't see her face, "Hey... Jessie. Listen to me." My tears wouldn't stop.

I told her, "Why did you do that to him, mom? He is the only my best friend at school, mom." I continued crying and she said, "I didn't mean that. I'm sorry, but remember when you were with Thomas? Did you bring him to our house? No. He hurt you! What if this guy will hurt you?" I didn't want to say anything to her, I hated my mom so much!

"Go away, mom! I want to be alone." I said.

My mom finally left my room and she closed the door.

I wanted to send a message to Ruby, I trust her so much.

Hurt.

I wanted to leave this house, I hated my mom so much for what she did to Andrew.

I started typing to Ruby,
"I want to leave this house"
She replied my message late,
"Why? What's going on?"
I replied her,
"My mom hates my best friend who I met at school"
"That's rude, I'm coming tomorrow to your house. Okay?"
"No!"

She didn't answer the message anymore. I guess she would come to my house tomorrow. I wish I knew where Ruby stayed at. She never showed me her house.

I turned on my laptop to watch some Tyler Oakley's videos on youtube to cheer me up.

Andrew phoned me while I was watching Tyler Oakley's video and I paused his video.

I would get awkward if I would answer him,

"Jessica?"
"Andrew... Oh, my god. I'm sorry about my mom"
"For kicking me out of your house?"
"Yes. I hate her, I'm so sorry about that"
"That's fine... She is such a hero to you that she thinks I will hurt you though I won't."

I laughed but my mom wasn't a hero to me. What hero?
"A hero?"
"Yes... Okay, Jessica. I'm about to have a dinner with my family. See you tomorrow!"

I have 2 choices, should I leave this house to Andrew's house or Ruby's house?

I seriously wanted to commit suicide with these pills.
I wouldn't do that in England.

What if the police caught my parents even they didn't do anything wrong?

Luckily, Andrew didn't get mad at me because of what my mom did to him.

My mom just called me for dinner from downstairs but I locked my self to be alone tonight.

Next day,
I was the only one who didn't go outside for lunch at school.
A few minutes, Andrew walked in with his some friends. Such a cool guy.

I wanted to be alone because I was really awkward with his friends, I couldn't do the interact with his friends.

So, I'd like to go to the toilet but there were Molly with her friends. They blocked my way again and they pulled my hand and took me to the toilet.

They slapped me,
They laughed at me ,
They pulled my hair so hard,
They pushed me until I fell down,
Then, they kicked my back by their shoes,
They pushed me to the sink until my nose was bleeding,
They laughed at me,
I was crying in front of them and they called me, "slut" "bitch" and "loser".
Then they left me alone.

I saw my self in the mirror, all I that I could see was my stupid face because of them.
I washed my face.

I felt like no one likes me and my mom hates me.

I was waiting for Ruby to pick me up.

Ruby saw my stupid face while she was opening the window, "What's happened with your face? Get in."

I got in the car.
Ruby was driving and I explained her, "I HATE SCHOOL, why no one likes me? no one of them likes me! I know I have a friend, but only that guy one? They bully me every time! I just got bullied by the group of girls. I hate my self so much, whenever I talk to that guy one they think I'm dating him even I'm not. My mom hates my friend too, that guy one." I started crying like an idiot while we were in a traffic.

Ruby saw me crying and then she said, "Jessie. When I was like at your age, I was a bully, you know. You could be a bully but I don't ask you to be a bully. What I mean was you bully yourself! You said you hate yourself, yeah, you should love yourself. You're beautiful! Trust me. You're not a bitch. They're wrong! The girls who bullied you are bitches, you know. I was such a bitch when I was in high school and I bullied my non-bitches friends. About your mother, maybe she doesn't hate your friend. Maybe, she doesn't want to get annoyed by anyone... She hates teenage boys." I couldn't stop crying the way she said that my mom hates teenage boys and I said, "I want to live in your house, I hate my mom!".

Ruby got a confused face, "What? Hmmm... Let me think." she said, "Well, okay." I smiled and said, "Thank you, Ruby!".

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