Saving Lucifer

Momma

Walking out of a tree line into an opening, I saw the lake in front of me. Castiel was standing in front of the lake, his hands clasped behind his back, fidgeting with his fingers. As I made my way across the field, past the picnic tables, I stumbled on a twig causing Castiel to turn around quickly.

"Angel!" He exclaimed running towards me.

When he reached me, he wrapped his arms around me, lifting me off the ground, and spun me around. When he set me down, his lips met mine in desperation. I slid my arms around his neck returning the kiss, just as desperate. Breaking our kiss and pulling away from our embrace, he looked me over.

"I'm fine, Cas."

"I've tried so many times to connect with you. We all have."

My brow furrowed; my lips pulled into a frown.

"What? This was the first time I felt anything."

"Where are you?"

"In the Nothing."

"You're not sleeping? How are you awake?"

Shrugging as I began explaining, "I don't know but neither is Lucifer. He told me to will myself to sleep as soon as I felt this pulling in the back of my head."

"You're with Lucifer?" Castiel's eyes darkened as he stepped back from me.

"Cas, do we have to go through this again? I'm so sick of fighting, I'm sick of everyone ignoring me, not wanting me around."

"Everyone wants you back, Angel. We have all tried reaching you. Finding you. I assumed you were sent to the Nothing but Chuck refused to tell us where you were."

"Cas," I reached for his hand, holding it in mine as I spoke softly.

"I'm dead. He didn't just send me there, he killed me."

"No. If you died, our bond would have broken. The three of us are still bound."

"How is Azriel?" Pain twisted in my heart as I said his name.

"He's walking. His first word was Mom."

My hand quickly covered my mouth as my eyes widened in shock. Tears welled up, threatening to spill over and down my face. Closing my eyes tight, the tears fell. Castiel wrapped his arms around me, rubbing my back to comfort me.

"How old is he? How long have I been gone?"

"A year."

"No. I've missed his first year." The pain I was feeling in my heart was nothing like I've ever felt before. Not even when my family shunned me. My baby was a year old, he was walking, talking, and I missed it all.

"What all can he say?" I asked as I looked up, wiping the tears from my eyes.

"Let's sit down." He walked me to the spot where we first gazed at the stars and then years later got married.

Once on the ground, he pulled me against him, wrapping his arms around me and holding me close.

"He says a few things. No full sentences yet but he says Mom, Dad, he calls Dean 'De' and Sam 'am', he' says something that sounds like gail. I assume he's trying to say, Gabriel. But mainly he stumbles and wobbles around saying Mom, gail."

"Gail?"

"Yeah, Gabriel spends a lot of time with him. When Jodi isn't trying to kidnap him anyways." he laughed.

I sat up, turning my body to face him.

"Cas, what if he's not saying Gabriel?"

"What would he be saying?"

"Abigail?" I said picking at my jeans.

"Who's Abigail?"

I looked up at him, the look on his face told me he knew what I was thinking.

"Her name is Abigail?"

Nodding, I told him yes.

He sighed, pulling me back against his chest and held me in silence. We sat there for what seemed like hours, just holding one another, gazing up at the stars. When the silence was broken, he turned me towards him.

"I miss you." he whispered.

Tears began to fall again as he leaned in and kissed me with passion. Both of his hands cupped either side of my chin as he broke our kiss and stared into my eyes.

"I hate where you are and who you're with. I hate all of this. But I will find a way to get you out." He rested his forehead against mine.

"I'm taking him with me."

"What?" he pulled away to look me in the eye properly.

"I trust him, Cas. I'm truly sorry if you don't but please trust me. This little girl changed him. That little girl deserves to have her father, no matter who he is. Right now, she's an orphan."

He glanced off to the side as he spoke.

"She has people who care about her."

"The woman at that house is all she knows, but she's not her mother, Cas."

"That woman is dead."

"What? Is Abigail ok?" I panicked, sitting on my knees.

"Yes. She's safe, Angel."

"How can you be sure if the woman is dead? Where is she?"

"She's living with us."

Staring in his eyes in disbelief, my jaw fell open. I searched his face, his eyes. He was telling the truth.

"When you disappeared, Dean attacked Chuck. Chuck hurt him pretty badly, he almost died. Sam attacked second, when Chuck was getting ready to attack Sam, Gabriel and I both intervened. Chuck being attacked by angels disrupted the Heavenly flow; it alerted the angels. Michael came rushing down to Earth. Once he realized what was going on, he helped us lock Chuck into a cage very similar to Lucifer's."

The expressions on my face must have changed quickly because Castiel chuckled at me but he continued talking.

"Michael hauled Chuck back into Heaven where he is being watched, basically locked in his own Heaven. Gabriel took Dean back to the house; Sam and I went into the little girl's home and searched for her and the woman. When we found the woman, she was dead. Abigail was nowhere to be found. I searched for her for days. I finally found her with one of the demons that used to follow Lucifer. She was unharmed when I picked her up and she looked into my eyes... Angel, all I could think about was if something ever happened to Azriel, I'd do anything in my power to save him. Anything. And that's when I finally understood. So, I took her home with me, promising myself to raise her and keep her safe."

"How is she growing?"

"She's still behind. She looks to be about 2 now. Give or take a few months. She's tall. She walks. Doesn't talk much though."

"I still have the vial around my neck. She needs his grace."

"I know. And so does Azriel. He created another vial when I brought her home. I haven't given it to her."

"Cas," Staring in his eyes pleadingly, "If Em created another one, she's supposed to have it. Please."

"I need to get back. Jodi is with the kids right now. I will find a way to get you out of there, Angel. I promise." He stood, pulling me to my feet. "And Lucifer."

Smiling, I silently thanked him with a kiss. He pulled my body against him, kissing me with passion, with love.

"I love you, Angel. I'm so sorry for how we treated you and made you feel."

"That's for another day. Go take care of our son. Tell him momma loves him and thinks about him every day."

"I will."

"I love you, Cas." Dropping his hands, I walked towards the tree line as I willed myself to wake up.