Saving Lucifer

I'm His Mother

When I woke from another dream walking visit a few nights later, both of the kids were curled up in my bed on either side of me. Feeling my heart swell at the sight, I put my arms around both of them and lay on my back staring at the ceiling.

"Angel?" Abigail was speaking.

"Yes, dear?"

"When will daddy be not Unc anymore?"

"I don't understand what you're asking." I readjusted myself so I could slide my arms out from under the children, sitting up as Abigail sat up, she turned to face me.

"When will daddy be daddy again?"

"Oh. You see, Cas is hurt."

"Uncle Cas." she corrected me.

Chuckling at her correction, I reworded my comment for her.

"Uncle Cas is hurt pretty badly. Your dad is helping to heal him from within since Cas...Uncle Cas is so weak at the moment."

"I want daddy to hug me." she frowned as she lowered her head and looked down at her hands.

"Oh, sweetie, I understand the feeling. I understand it more than you could ever know." I pulled her onto my lap, hugging her.

"Listen, just because it's Uncle Cas' body, that doesn't mean it isn't your daddy. I know this is weird, it's different. But believe me when I tell you that it's your daddy hugging you. I promise. Do you know how much your daddy loves you?" I asked rocking my body side to side as I spoke with her.

"He risked his life for you. He moved Heaven and Earth to get to you. You changed his life, Abigail."

"I know. That's the only reason you guys let Az help me."

"What? No, sweetie. I didn't know you existed. I know that doesn't sound any better. But if your daddy wouldn't have fought so hard to get through to me, I'd have never known that you needed Em's help. Did you get Em's grace?"

"Yes, thank you. Uncle Cas gave it to me when we were done at the park. I was finally able to talk the words I had in my head."

"So, it helped?"

"Yes, it helped me grow."

"You're a very special little girl. And you're loved. You're so very loved. By everyone here."

"And by you?" she looked up at me with her beautiful green eyes.

"Yes, Abbie, I l love you so very much. Can I call you Abbie?"

"Yes, I like that. Daddy does, too."

Furrowing my brow in confusion, my attention was pulled towards my door. Lucifer was standing in the hall, leaned against the wall across from my door watching me with the kids.

"Abbie, who unlocked my door?"

"Az." she pointed at Azriel.

"Ok. It seems Azriel and I are going to have to have a little talk about boundaries." I giggled as I gently set Abigail on the floor so she could run over to Lucifer. As I scooped Azriel up off of the bed, I held him close to me. I knew he was only sleeping to see Castiel. Careful not to disturb him, I carried him out to the living room with me.

The house was dark, it must have been late. I sat on the couch with Azriel laying over my abdomen, head resting on my shoulder. Lucifer and Abigail were in her room, I could hear him reading a book to her. Smiling at the thought, I wrapped my arms around Azriel, lay my head back against the couch, and listened to his story. To the soothing sound of Castiel's voice.