Oblivious

Chapter 4- (Emotionally) a Wreck

Amity POV:

I pull myself onto my bed, I can feel myself start to shake. But I ignore it. I feel cold, but it's hot out. My shoes start digging into the floor as my tears start pouring. I try holding it in, but I can't. I drop my bag onto the hard floor. Between the banging noise of that and me crying, there's a hard knock on my door.

"Amity?!"

Crap.

"Yes, mother-"

"What's that noise?"
As I see the doorknob start turning I begin to feel a wave of nervousness rush over me. My parents strongly forbid a Blight from crying, or showing any form of emotion. And if they see me like this-well. 

But I'm too much of a moron to sit back. Regardless of my straight A's (even though I'm not) I still am not smart enough to sit back. And so, I run to the door, slamming my body against it. I hear a loud noise. And that's when I realize I hit the door so hard, just as my mother was standing against it, about to open it, that I made the door hit her, and I made her fall. 

"ALADOR!!! NOW!!!"

My eyes start watering even more now. My father is the smallest bit tolerant of this. Shockingly more so than that of my mother. My father may be one of the strictest members of the Blight family. Truth be told, my parents used to be nice to me. They used to care. They read me books, gave me presents and praised me if I did something good. Once I turned 9, that started changing. It's weird how I just adapted to that change. Almost as though I saw it coming. 

The door swung open

"Amity!!! WHY WOULD YOU THINK YOU COULD JUST?!?!"

Noticing where I am, he slams the door into my stomach. I can barely breathe. 

"Listen. I am going to give you a second chance. Apologize now and the consequences will be less painful,"

Trying to regain my breath I manage to push out a few words.

"N-no. I never meant to hit her with the door. But I will never. Ever. Apologize to someone like you"

And that's the last I remember, next thing I know I wake up. My whole body is aching. I refuse to look around me. God knows what went on but I feel the pain, although being unconscious for the entirety of it.

Grabbing anything I can, I push myself through the window. Practically crying from the pain, I try lowering myself. Remember, my house is tall. Well actually, it's a manor. I try grabbing onto anything I can. I now attempt to scale the side of the structure. But there's what seems like no end.  

"Excuse me, is Amity here?"

I hear a voice say... suddenly I feel my hand let go. But instead of screaming, I'm emotionless. I look up, my eyes wide, then when I'm about to hit the ground, I almost scream, "Luzzzz!" but I don't. I cant.

I feel myself hit the ground. It's hot. And somewhat soft. 

"Amity are you-"

Without turning, I run. I run and I don't stop. I hear the voice start to follow me. Their footsteps getting closer. And so I run faster. Even though all of me is aching, and my leg feels as though it has snapped in half, I still manage to run. 

I get to the forest, I'm almost in Bonesborough now. But I don't want to get there. And I can't bring the person who's following me with me too. 

Put my finger up in the air I make a circle, a purple stroke of light follows my shaking hand. The light explodes into flames. Trapping the person behind me. That's when it hits me.

It's Luz

I go to turn around but I'm reluctant. I whisper to myself,

"I'm sorry Luz-"

My eyes swell with tears for what feels like the tenth time today. I block out all surrounding noise, And I cry harder as I run faster.  

Suddenly, something tells me to turn back. 

And so I do.

Jumping through the flames, I fear for my life. But without Luz, what is life? And so I think it's worth the risk. 

I grab her and jump out. She falls and so do I. 

"Amity-"

I look at her, about to cry.

"Did you just jump into fire for me?!"

She raises her eyebrows up and down, smirking a bit.

"Shut up!!"

She laughs, before she stops and she starts crying.

"What did I say-"

I look at her, my face change from happy to upset.

"I-"

"Amity, JUST TELL ME"

"Luz. You just don't understand."

"So then help me to understand-"
"Luz you don't get it!!!"

She looks at me, slightly shocked.

"And it's not something I could just spit out, it's deeper than that..."

"Well then am I bothering you?"

"No. You've been nothing close to bothersome..."

"I haven't?"

"No, Luz."

Luz goes to turn around, as she says, 

"Let me know If I can help, I guess"

"Luz-"

I grab her arm, she turns her head and looks at me. My heart starts to pound. I feel like I can barely breathe.

"I-"

Our eyes lock. I'm in too deep now...

"I have a crush on you, okay?"