𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐌𝐞 | 𝐇.𝐏

act i : scene xxi

harry potter's pov

i stay at the hospital wing for a few days forward. i haven't discussed about y/n's mother with the others also i haven't see y/n either. so... after i win and voldemort's back she doesn't try to say 'congratulation' or 'i'm sorry'. i don't even know what to feel —betrayed? yes, of course. but if she's in the dark side why she would let me know not to bring cedric? and does she feel bad for betraying me? does she know that she just help voldemort's reborn?

my thoughts interrupted with a swing of the hospital wing door; hermione and ron rushing towards my bed. i suppose they're just finished lunchtime. "mate, i see y/n at the great hall and she doesn't look so good" ron starts, grabbing a stool to sit beside my bed.

i scoff, rolling my eyes, "and?"

"her eyes red harry, she must know something about the tournament and feel bad about it" hermione placing her bag under my bed.

"if she knew then why she didn't tell me from the beginning and where is she? if she really feels bad about it she will say at least one sorry"

"when i smile to her, she just looks away, ashamed"

"look, her mum's a death eater and what if she's one too?"

"you can't possibly think of that harry! she's just what? fourteen or fifteen just like us" hermione scolds me, didn't want to think anything bad about her new best friend.

"for all we know, she could be" i huff, thinking all the bad possibilities if we're still befriend with her. though i know that my heart still begging me just like at the yule ball. to understand her, to help her, and to be there for her. but the anger feeds me away.

"how did you know that her mum is a death eater by the way?" ron asks.

"voldemort, he asks where eneco is, i suppose she's very loyal or whatever and lucius told him that she's preparing the house"

"what house? headquarters or something?" he furrows his eyebrows, looking back and forth from hermione to me.

"i s'pose... if just lucius told him where is it, maybe i'd be able to go there and kill voldemort myself after we go back from last semester" hermione glares at me, doesn't agree with what i think.

"also before the last task started she told me to leave cedric behind if anything happens to him, i mean why" they gasps, not expecting it.

"maybe she wants you to win harry not him" hermione told me.

"as if, we're not even close before that and suddenly she wants me to win? seriously!"

"but doesn't she told you that her mother scarred her mentally and physically? i think if what she says is the truth then, she's just afraid and she didn't know about you-know-who thingy" ron tells me.

"but we don't know if she's telling me the truth ronniekins" i give him a tight-lipped smile. "we just have to wait what she going to do, clarifying it all or go back being a fucking brat"

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y/n eneco's pov

i didn't know what i did, i just helped voldemort reborn. i truly don't know that my mum asks me to help harry is to bring voldemort's back. i just thought maybe the reason why she and her boyfriend helped him was that maybe they'll torment him in the end? that didn't make it much better i know, but... i feel fucking guilty. i don't even know what happened at the graveyard as harry said and i don't know if she came there or someone mentioned her. it's not a surprise if harry and the others know that my mum is a death eater and i'm not going to blame them for hating me like the old times.