In My Idol's Soul | Blackbangtan - TaeLice {COMPLETED}

I Remember Now

~Lisa

(Earlier)

I know Tzuyu and Chae had already been waiting for me. But I can't afford to show myself to them knowing that I'll be putting Chae's life in danger. I was getting anxious as I know that in a few moments now, they'll be transferring my body and I still can't find any solution yet. It feels like I had no one to ask for help, it's so hopeless.

I get even more anxious when I saw that they're about to leave the hospital. I had no idea what to do to save myself. I feel helpless watching the ambulance getting further until I can no longer sight it. There goes my body, having no idea that if I can't find any solution, she'll be dead. My tears streamed as emotions rushed up to my head. And there, I found myself crying my heart out, screaming and begging for help.

"Please, please help me. To whoever who can hear me, help me." I shouted looking above the sky as my instincts told me so. Everything that is happening to me is from up there, so I'm hoping that my plea will be heard.

"I don't know about your plans for me, nor I didn't know what I did to deserve this kind of fate. However, what I know is I tried so hard to be a good person. I never blamed anyone or even you for all the hardships that I went through." I screamed still looking above trying to laid reasons.

"I have never given up yet, so please help me. I want to continue this mission and live again. Jebal! Help me!" I contintued breathing heavily with all those screaming that I did.

"Jebal!" I whispered lowering my head as I feel heavy. My tears continued to fall as I silently pray to heavens to help me.

"Miss, you're crying again." I instantly looked around to see who have said those words.

"Ahjusii?" I uttered when I saw him taking a step closer towards me. How? I mean, I never expect to see him again after he suddenly disappeared that night at Han River.

"Can you see me?" I asked starting to get confused.

"Well, I do, turns out this is my fate." He answered showing a weak smile.

"Wae? What happened?" I asked wiping out my tears.

"I died." He answered smiling genuinely.

"Gwaenchana?" I asked him as I feel sorry about how his life turned out to be. His wife cheated on him and now he died, he didn't even get the chance to love another woman again.

"You know what, even though my fate wasn't that good. I'm happy that I get to live a life. My wife cheated on me and I died with that pain. But as I think about it, maybe I died because the heavens didn't want me to feel any pain anymore." He said smiling as he too looks at the sky.

I have felt so much pain already that sometimes I have wished to not feel any pain anymore.

"I have felt so much pain, do you think it's better if I just die too?" I asked him lowering my head trying to hide my expression. I didn't really wanna say it, but I feel hopeless right now.

"Kid, I already told you before 'the best is yet to come.' You shouldn't give up on your life that easy. You still had the chance to fight, so why are you withdrawing from the battle when you are already half way on winning it?" He stated while I remain silent not knowing what to answer him. 'Am I really halfway there?' I asked myself.

"We are different, I died because I had no choice but to die. But you, you still have the chance to continue your amazing life. So don't give up. I still want to see you living in a life where happiness prosper." He continued looking at me smiling that I couldn't help but tear up again.