Since January 3rd,2021, My life has been fucked up more than ever. I have been depressed for a long time. My mood swings are everywhere. Today is February 3rd. I hate it. I hate when people ask me if im okay? LIKE BITCH NO IM NOT OKAY. IM FUCKING BROKEN THATS SOMETHING YOU CANT UNDERSTAND!!!!! IM FUCKED UP. My life is just fucked up....I just missed when i would just hang wit my mama and she would tell me all these little secrets into being the "most nicest" girl in school so everyone wouldnt treat me like crap. You wanna know what happened. I got detentions, i had got pulled out of class just to write apology notes to everyone i had disrespected even if they did it to me first. I got pushed around. I got backstabbed. I got into fights. I got into verbal fights as well. I am soon to get a tattoo because it represents all the shit i had went through and all the shit i did. the picture is on top. Im honestly so confused...no one and i mean no one has tried to put themselves into my shoes.
I haven't been feeling any time of pain....I would cry...not feel anything. I would cut...not feel anything. I just don't feel pain or emotions anymore. I think Jaden officially broke me. That's just...great. I hate it here so much. UGHHHHHH.
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