Besides You

I'm sorry

You never know how good you have it
Until you lose it
When I lost you
My heart broke
The room fell silent
My eyes filled with water
My body couldn't move
Memories of us
Flashed between my eyes
I typed to you words
That I did not believe
"You deserve to be happy even if it isn't with me"
"Any girl would be lucky to call you theirs"
I said it to you because I thought it was right
We agreed to be friends
Although my hearts yearns for you
The days that followed were hell
I didn't eat
I cried myself to sleep
Because I lost you
My everything
I will forever blame myself
I overthought everything
I was so scared to lose you because of it
And I did
I didn't deserve your love
For I believe that I was not enough
But I was on Cloud 9
When you played video games
When you fell asleep
When we planned our future
I was in love with you
I am in love with you
Right now we are apart
And its my fault
We talk but i miss you
I miss you smiling at me
I miss you telling me you love me
I miss the cute names you gave me
I think about you all the time
From the moment I wake up to when I fall asleep
People tell me to move on
But how can I let go the one thing that gave me hope
For that my heart could not handle
I fear that you will find someone new
I fear you will love her more than me
I fear we will become strangers
I do wish I could give you more
But I'm sorry