Besides You

War

There will be friends in your life that will come and go

They have finished their part in your book of life

They would become a memory as you reflect back on the past

The ones that stay with you till the end are the ones you want to keep

They stood by your side when you were at your worst

They made you laugh when you didn't think it was possible

They filled in the hole that was once empty

And everyday they always fulfilled those without a doubt

But as warm breezes turn into teeth chattering chills you start to feel different towards them

The people that have always been by your side suddenly feel distant

They don't care like they used to

They don't act like the people you once knew

They don't pay attention when something is wrong

The more they push you away you start to feel alone

You stop interacting with people

You ignore text messages and calls

You stay home and hope Monday never returns

As days pass the thoughts start to bang louder and louder

Trying to break the wall separating your emotions and morals

The never ending war inside your head

Will leave you defeated

You can't tell your friends they will know you lied saying you are okay

You can't tell your family they said you should be alright

You can't do anything but sit still and look "happy"

Your friends have their own wars to deal with

You know this because you sit still and listen

You hear all the things going in their lives that by the time they ask you

They don't seem to care

So you lie and say

I am alright

But you hope that maybe if you say it enough times

You might even believe it