Are you one of us?

21. It seemed so perfect, but it ended.

Jungkook has locked himself up in his room, he didn't want to talk to a soul.
The fearless mafia was broken, lost and not himself anymore.

The boys had been trying to get him out for a good 3 days now, but nothing worked.
They cooked his favorite food, tried to pursue him with games, they tried it with jokes but not thing seemed to work.

"Jungkook" Suga knocked on the door, but again there was no answer.
"Jungkook if you don't get out of this room I will kick it in!" Suga began to get frustrated by you her ones behaviors.
He understood he was in pain, but he wasn't the only one that missed her.

They hadn't brought her name up since that day, they were al, to scared of Jungkook's reaction.
But enough was enough.

"Do you think Y/N wanted this to happen to you?!" Suga yelled and it did get a reaction.
"Suga, that night not be the best way." Namjoon said when he walked up to Suga.
"Yeah what is then a good idea, he is just being PATHETIC" Jungkook hated to be called weak, so Suga made it clear that he heard it.

The door opened and they saw Jungkook, but he wasn't the same as before.
Emotionless, absolutely not emotion in his eyes.

"What did you just say?" He said with a warning glare.
"pathetic , I called you pathetic."
Jungkook scoffed and gave him a glare.

"Do you think Y/N would have been proud to see you like this?!" Suga yelled.
"Don't you dare!" Jungkook grabbed Suga by his collar and pushed him against the wall.
"Don you dare say that! You have absolutely no right to do so!"
"I think she would have fought you for being so pathetic."
"Suga!" Namjoon yelled.

Suga looked at Namjoon with a straight face. When he turned back to Jungkook, who still had Suga pushed against the wall. Jungkook looked furious, he looked like he could kill Suga any moment.

"If she was here sh-" Suga started off, but got cut off by Jungkook.
"Well she isn't. She is dead!" Jungkooks eyes held so much anger but if you looked behind the anger you could see the sadness.
"She is dead and nothing or no one can change that! I killed her!" He let Suga go and Suga looked shocked.
"Kook..." he started off, he never expected this.

"What do you want me to make it more like rainbows and sunshine's for you?!" Jungkook yelled angry.
"Jungkook don't say stuff you will regret!" Namjoon yelled at him. The other guys walked to the screams.
"What?! What will I regret Namjoon?! She is dead no one can bring her back!"

"That Night she saved me! And for what reason? I'm better of death!"
"No you're not, we need you Jungkook!" Jimin yelled.
"For what?! I couldn't save her so I had to put a bullet in her fucking heart!"
"Kook... don't blame yourself for it" Hoseok sad softly, trying to calm him down but it had no use.

"Don't blame myself?!" He let out a sarcastic laugh as he looked at them.
"I pulled the trigger, I killed her. Y/N is dead because I pulled the trigger!" 

"Jungkook! We couldn't save her! We didn't know this would happen!" Taehyung yelled at him.
"Yes we did! We knew that DIA wanted her dead!"
"Kook they didn't want her dead, they wanted her contained"
"Well either way, they did want her dead. Other wise they wouldn't have pulled the trigger again when she hugged me!"

"She protected you! She did it to save you!" Namjoon yelled angry. The other looked with a sad look at Jungkook.
"Well she saved me but we couldn't save her!"
"Jungkook!"