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letter 1

We walk back into our first period class. Conner and Sydney are already in their seats. "Hey Conner." I say. "Christina!" Conner says excitedly. "Conner your in my seat again." Catie says and rolls her eyes. "Jesus Catie." Conner says and moves from her seat. "Have y'all added anyone to the kill list?" Conner asks. The Kill List is a list of people Addison and I don't like. Catie's doesn't like it, so she doesn't add anyone to it. "She did." Addison says and hands Conner the list. "It's the one that says Ryan Wilson." I say. Conner finds the name on the list. "Jesus Christina, that's really bad." Conner says. I shrug my shoulders. After all "Ryan Wilson" deserves it. Our facilitator, Coach Harrell, comes in and sits at his desk. Everyone hates him deep down. "Didn't I tell you to move?" Coach Harrell says to us. "You didn't move anyone else, sounds pretty sexist to me." Addison says and turns back around and continues to talk to us. Sydney begins airdropping us memes and Catie starts laughing. I love her laugh. It makes me happy. "Oh I passed my math test." Catie tells us. "I passed mine too." I say. "Well I still have to take mine." Addison says. The door opens. We turn our attention to the door and Rhett comes in. I look at him and look at the floor. I immediately feel like I'm going to be sick. "It's okay mum, he sucks." Addison says to me. "Yeah, he doesn't deserve you." Catie says to me. I force a smile on my face. As much as I want to believe them, I can't. Tori comes in the classroom shortly after and comes and sits with us. Just like everyone else, we act like we're her friend. We all secretly hate her. Tori starts talking about Rhett. Addison and Catie look at me. I roll my eyes. Tori doesn't know about what happened with me and Rhett. "And he basically asked me out." Tori says. "And what did you say?" I asked. "I told him no, but I'm thinking about it." Tori says. "Coach Harrell, can I go to Mrs. Lovvorn's room now?" Tori asked. She leaves the classroom and Nicole comes in. We don't like her either. Matter of fact, we only really like each other. "Oh my god guys, you have to watch me incase my shirt comes above my belly button ring." Nicole says to us and sits down. "Yeah I will." I say. She starts talking to Sydney. And they both leave the classroom. I look up from my phone and Rhett is looking at me. I look away from him and put my head in my hands. This is the second time I've let Rhett do something to me. Addison looks at Rhett. "Hey, quit looking at her." Addison says. "I didn't even do anything." Rhett says and throws his hands up in the air. "Fucking bitch." I mumble. The bell rings and we start going to our next class, biology. I'm good at biology surprising. "Mrs. Thompson!" I say excitedly. "Good morning Christina." Mrs. Thompson says back to me. She's seen me go through a lot. She is definitely one of my favorite teachers. Everyone else comes into class and Carson comes and sits with me. He talks about his girlfriend Madison. He asks me for advice about her, as usual. Class begins and Mrs. Thompson begins speaking. "Alright we're going to watch a video and then I have a fun activity after." Mrs. Thompson says and starts the video. I pull my phone out of my hoodie pocket. I get on Snapchat and look through all my notifications. I snap a couple people back and I get a notification from Rhett. I half swipe it to see what it says. Did you block my number? I turn off my phone and sigh. Class is about to end and Conner yells out for me. "Christina, come here." Conner says. I walk over to his seat and he points to the name Ryan Wilson, on the list. "That's Rhett." Conner whispers. I nod my head and then the bell rings. Catie and I walk together and her brother, Caleb catches up with us. "Hey Christina." Caleb says. He gives me a high five and Catie and I keep walking. Mason Merrell walks past me. I pay no mind to him, but I get chills every time I see him. We walk into history class, my favorite class. I wave at Nick and Nathan. "Hey Christina." Josie and Jacob say to me. I smile at them and sit in my seat. Conner comes and sits in his seat beside me. Our history teacher, Mr. Wiggins comes in. "Alright, we're going to be talking about a lot of death for a while, if you're not okay with that, you need to leave." He says to us. "I'm completely okay with dying." I mumble to myself.