Can You Help Me Trust Again? || Mitch Marner • DISCONTINUED

Chapter 6

tori's pov

i woke up to my arms in pain and that's when it all came back to me. i am such a idiot i mumbled, i heard the guys screaming at eachother. anyone can guess what's going on downstairs they are playing call of duty no doubt or rocket league one of the two but most definitely cod.

i got out of my bed and went downstairs, i saw mitch but i ignored him and went to the kitchen. i felt someone grab my arm it was auston he didn't mean to have a hard grip but since he did i winced in pain and everyone saw... including mitch.

"tori you okay? you look like your in pain" auston asked obviously worried he had let go of my arms after doing our handshake.

"y-yeah i'm f-fine" i tried to cover up the pain in my voice but they all noticed.

why did the team have to be here. "you don't look like your fine." mo stepped in to say.

"i just sprained my arm yesterday that's all so it's still sore today" i said and they all believed it but the person who didn't quite believe it was mitch.

mitch gave me this look as to say i know what your hiding and i didn't like that look. i went and got gatorade and sat outside to get fresh air. that's when i heard someone come out behind me i could probably guess who it was but i kept looking down at the ground just thinking.

i felt someone sit next to me and that's when i looked up to see mitch sitting there. it was an awkward silence before i spoke up.

"can we forget that earlier happened i didn't know what came over me and i'm sorry" i looked at the ground avoiding eye contact with him.

"it's fine and you don't need to be sorry there is something i want to tell you." mitch said.

i looked at him confused, i then felt his lips on mine it took me a second to overcome the shock but i eventually kissed back. it was a sweet and passionate kiss our lips moved in sync with each others and i felt sparks go off and butterflies in my stomach.

we both pulled away catching our breaths i looked down at the ground blushing like crazy. i felt mitch's fingers lift my chin up to make me look at him.

mitch took a deep breath and started talking.

"tori i've liked you for sometime i don't care if you like me back but i've had feelings for you for the longest time now, i was to scared to say anything because well your my teammate and my best friend but i'm willing to take this chance and tell you how i feel. whenever i'm around you i get all nervous and i can't fight back these feelings anymore your the most beautiful girl i have ever met but i don't care if you like me back all i care is that i finally got the nerve to tell you how i feel" mitch said.

once he finished i looked at him not knowing what to say, i mean i like him too but what if i get my heart broken again.

~ i recommend listening to the song now ~

i promised myself to never love anyone again, am i ready for this commitment after what happened with jason?

"mitch i-i don't know how to feel i mean i like you too but i don't know if i'm ready for a relationship i'm sorry." i said.

i then looked at him and he smiled softly.

"i'll be waiting for whenever you are ready take your time" is all he said.

he got up and walked inside leaving me there in my thoughts. am i 100% ready for a committed relationship? mitch would soon get fed up of me once he sees how broken i am. i sighed not knowing what to think or do i sat outside and let silent tears fall.

i ran upstairs to get my earphones and went to an old abandoned place me and nolan once explored i sat on the roof listening to my emo playlist watching the city of toronto go by. when nicotine by panic at the disco came on i started singing softly to the music.

cross my heart and hope to die
burn my lungs and curse my eyes
i've lost control and i don't want it back
i'm going numb, i've been hijacked
it's a fucking drag

I taste you on my lips and I can't get rid of you
So I say damn your kiss and the awful things you do
Yeah, you're worse than nicotine, nicotine
Yeah, you're worse than nicotine, nicotine Yeah

It's better to burn than to fade away
It's better to leave than to be replaced
I'm losing to you, baby, I'm no match
I'm going numb, I've been hijacked
It's a fucking drag

I taste you on my lips and I can't get rid of you
So I say damn your kiss and the awful things you do
Yeah, you're worse than nicotine, nicotine
Yeah, you're worse than nicotine, nicotine
Yeah

Just one more hit and then we're through
'Cause you could never love me back
Cut every tie I have to you
'Cause your love's a fucking drag
But I need it so bad
Your love's a fucking drag
But I need it so bad

Yeah, you're worse than nicotine, nicotine
Yeah, you're worse than nicotine, nicotine
Yeah

the song soon finished i just stared out onto the city thinking about my decision that i had to make. i didn't want to leave him in the dark for a long time but he also said he understands. life and love is confusing.

~ a/n ~
what decision do you think tori will choose?
and nicotine is one of my favorite songs.

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