Can You Help Me Trust Again? || Mitch Marner • DISCONTINUED

Chapter 21

tori's pov
i woke up as i felt arms around my waist i turned and i was greeted with a sleeping mitch. i nuzzled my face into his chest trying to block out the light. mitch then tightened his grip on me pulling me even closer if that's even possible. i smiled softly and i then got a pain in my head causing me to bury my head into mitchs chest.

i felt mitch stir as i held onto him tighter and soon enough his eyes slowly opened and i was met with his deep blue eyes that i can easily get lost in.

"good morning, how did you sleep?" mitch asked and i had to keep myself from blushing at his morning voice.

"good, when did you get home?" i asked.

"around 12am" mitch said and pulled me closer. "how you feeling anyway?" mitch asked as he kissed my forehead.

"my head is sore" i said softly as i blushed a little bit.

"let's just stay in bed all day and cuddle" mitch said and i smiled.

"i like that idea"

mitch got up and i pouted slightly.

"i'll go get your pain meds, i'll be back in a minute" mitch said as he kissed my forehead and left the room.

i stared at the ceiling waiting for mitch to come back. eventually he came back about 20 minutes later  with food from tim hortons, two bottles of water, two coffees and my pain meds. he gave me the pain meds and one of the bottle of waters.

"i also got you some tim hortons and a coffee" mitch said and i smiled.

"thanks babe" i smiled and took the things from mitch.

i took the pain meds with the bottle of water. me and mitch both ate in silence. after we finished our food i cuddled into mitch not wanting to get up.

"my wrist is sore" i said softly.

"i know babe, it will get better soon i promise" mitch said as he kissed my forehead and i blushed softly.

~ couple days later ~

it has now been 7 days since i have gotten out of the hospital nothing much has happened apart from the guys getting a playoff spot against montréal and my family going home.

just now i was waiting for mitch to get back from practice. i was up in my room planning stuff for mitch's birthday.

i have been getting better, my head hasn't been as sore and neither has my wrist. i have a doctors appointment tomorrow just to see how things are going and hopefully i'll be cleared from my concussion. i just want to be able to do things instead of sitting doing nothing. i am planning a trip to LA for a week or so. there is no point in me being in Toronto as i have a broken wrist and i've worked out roughly how long i'll be out for and if the guys make it to the second round i will be playing but if they don't i'm not getting to play. so let's just hope the guys make second round or conference finals so i get to play and help them win.

i was taken out of my thoughts by the front door opening and closing and the sounds of footsteps being heard coming up the stairs. soon my bedroom door opened and mitch walked in with coffee.

"for m'lady" mitch said while handing me a coffee which made me giggle softly.

"thanks" i smiled as mitch gave me a kiss on the forehead. mitch sat next to me on my bed and started asking the normal questions like "how are you feeling?" and "are you feeling any better?" which he gets the same reply each time which is "i'm feeling a little better." mitch wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me close to him making me smile.

we decided on watching a movie mitch let me pick and i obviously choose a disney movie. you can't go wrong with disney. so with that being said we got comfortable watching Frozen 2.

after about 20 minutes of silence mitch spoke up.

"have i told you that i love you?"

"you have a few times yes"

"just making sure that you know that i love you" mitch said as he kissed my forehead making me blush.

"tor can i ask you a question?" mitch asked and i looked up at him. "sure what's up?"

"so you know how you done that to yourself" mitch said while pointing at my arm which my hoodie sleeves have rolled up seeing the old scars.

"yeah...."

"what made you start wanting to do that to yourself?" mitch asked.

i slowly sat up and mitch sat up as well. i looked at mitch and took a deep breath.

"i was going through a hard time and i found myself feeling really depressed and then one day i was staring at scissors and something in me told me to take them and start harming myself and then i got voices telling me i wasn't worth it and i started to believe them. i failed all my exams and i lost my dog who was my best friend, everything was going downhill so i started using the scissors and since before i never felt any type of emotion, hurting myself gave me feeling and it made me feel again. my family was disappointed in my my whole life i never turned out how they wanted and when they asked me what i wanted to do and i told them i wanted to play for team canada they said i never had a chance and some of my teachers said that as a way. my life was going downhill and i stopped eating normally as well and i fell into a eating disorder so i missed a lot of hockey but by the time i was 17 i got my life back on track. but i kept on hurting myself because i still got that feeling of finally being able to feel" i explained and i looked up at mitch who was still taking that all in and that's when i realized i said a little bit much that not even my family or that knows about.

"wow i-i had no idea. i'm sorry that you had to go through that" mitch said and i sighed softly.

"i don't want any sympathy as i done that to myself" i said softly.

"okay but please come talk to me whenever you feel like that. i want to help you tori, i love you so much and i don't want to see you in pain" mitch said and i smiled softly.

"i love you too and i will don't worry babe" i said. after some time of being in a comfortable silence i spoke up. 

"i-i'm sorry if like i'm weird around you it's just that my last relationship didn't really go well" i said softly not meeting mitch's eyes.

"what do you mean?" mitch asked as he pulled me close to him.

"i-i well when i was with jason he wasn't the perfect boyfriend and he was a-abusive" i said softly not wanting to meet mitch's eyes.

~ A/N ~
yo, yo, yo what's uppppp! so i have updated and it's a longer chapter so YAY! anyway i hope you liked this chapter.

anyway can i just say LEAFS WHAT THE FUCK?! you guys were playing so god dang good and it's changed. anyway i'm routing for the Habs to bring home this cup. #gohabsgo

okay another thing i wanted to add is i want to do a Q&A so you guys can know me better so send in some questions you have for me and i'll answer them in the next chapter or so.

but that's been this chapter love you guys peaceeee!

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