Can You Help Me Trust Again? || Mitch Marner • DISCONTINUED

Chapter 3

tori's pov

auston ended up killing mitch and i couldn't help but laugh i looked at the time it was 12:30 so that was perfect then.

"guys i'm away upstairs" i told them and all i got was a nod from both of the boys.

as i was about to walk upstairs i saw willy and kerf walk in with the coffee, now i was regretting saying no..

"COFFEEEEEEEEEE" i heard mitch say and he ran through took the coffee from Will and ran upstairs.

"he doesn't even need coffee" i heard auston say which made us all laugh.

"that's true" kerf said and i smiled and went upstairs.

"see y'all for the game" i shouted as i walked back upstairs.

i locked my bedroom door put earphones in and started my pre-game routine.

i lay down on my bed trying to fall asleep but i ended thinking about tonight's game against the canucks.. my hometown team this should be a good game before i fell asleep i heard a knock on my door. seriously can i not get peace i thought i got up and unlocked the door and auston was standing there.

"i have good news.. mitch broke up with stephane so we don't need to put up with her" as the words left auston's mouth i couldn't help but smile.

"wait really?" i asked i would never thought mitch would ever break it off but obviously i was wrong.

"yeah so we can all be happy once again" he said which he did have a point i can finally relax without worrying that she would say something.

"okay well thanks matts" i told him and then he walked away.

i closed the door and locked the door after he left. i fell back onto the bed and thought about my feelings towards mitch.

i'm not gonna lie i do think he is cute fuck that i think he's hot but he could never love anyone like me, i'm a fucked up mess i have scars that obviously say i'm not in the best mind-set. i have so much stuff i haven't even told my family and if i told him or anyone no one would want me for who i am. i will admit i am to broken to be fixed i've tried to fix myself but it never worked. so i'll just need to get over these feelings the best i can... i got them thoughts out of my head and fell asleep getting ready for tonight's game.

~ time skip ~

i heard my alarm go off i guess it's game time i thought. since my room was across from mitch's and we had to share a bathroom i heard the water running meaning he was in the shower already. i had a shower after practice so i'll have one after the game. i put my hair in braids and i got changed (see picture at the top) i went downstairs took a bottle of gatorade out of the fridge. zeus came down the stairs meaning mitch wasn't far behind then that's when i saw mitch in a suit i had to stop myself from staring. seriously tori get over this stupid crush i thought to myself i continue doing what i was doing.

"tori?" i heard mitch say i turned around and looked at him.

"yeah?" i asked.

"want to go to the rink together i was gonna go with matts but he isn't ready yet" he asked.

i felt my cheeks heat up at that i smiled softly.

"i'm away to leave now so if your ready then yeah you can" i saw him smile which made me smile.

"why does he have to be so cute" i mumbled.

"yeah i'll go get my shoes on then i'll be ready" he said.

i went and waited in the car for him all i need to ask is why is he so cute? that's all i need to ask i thought.

i got taken out of my thought by the car door opening and mitch got into the passenger seat and smiled at me with a devilish smile which i didn't trust at all.

"heyyyyyyy toriiiiiiii" i looked at him weirdly.

"what are you up to" i asked.

"can i get the aux cord pleaseeeee?" he asked.

"yeah sure" i said and smiled softly.

he looked down and took the aux cord playing random songs. i started driving it was a awkward silence but with the music playing it took some of the awkwardness away. what i did find out was that mitch has the same music taste as me, i ended up singing softly to the music forgetting mitch was next to me until the song finished and mitch started clapping i looked at him.

"what?" i asked kinda embarrassed about me singing only people who  have heard me sing was my close friends and family.

"your a really good singer what the hell how come you never sing around anyone else?" he asked i felt my cheeks heating up.

"umm i get anxious and freak out so i don't like singing in front of people so your a lucky one i guess" i answered taking a glance at mitch i saw him smile.

"i guess i am lucky" he went back to looking out the window.

5 minutes later we arrive at the rink me and me and mitch both got out of the car i put my earphones in playing my pre-game playlist and entered the building where there was the media waiting to get pictures for instagram. i went straight to my locker room and got changed into a sports bra, hoodie and leggings and started my pre-game rituals.

i went back into the locker room and changed into my gear getting ready for warm ups once i finished getting changed i walked into the guys locker room knowing when they are round about finished getting changed. we all then done our hand shakes and started to go into the ice for warm ups. i was the second last one on the ice, it was auston, mitch, me, then hutchinson.

"let's go gally" mitch said and we done our handshake.

i got in my place behind mitch and walked onto the ice for warm ups.

we were skating around shooting pucks at the net and getting ready for tonight's game. what was weird was i kept seeing mitch looking at me every so often but i ignored it thinking i'm just being over dramatic and wanting things to happen between me and mitch but one thing i haven't mentioned is that i have given up on love.

i don't trust in soulmates or true loves anymore and the people who do work out got lucky i have just had very bad luck with love so i have given up and i seeing myself not growing old with anyone. it sounds cliche i know but my last boyfriend jason... he was abusive and an alcoholic he was a good guy the first 2 months in our relationship but after that everything went downhill.

we dated for a year i ended it in december and i promised myself i wouldn't date after him i just don't trust anyone after him. i told him some stuff and i regret it but i'm glad i told him when he was drunk so didn't remember it but he shouted it from the rooftops that night and i could never trust after that.

i got taken out of my thoughts by zach hyman
"tor you okay? you seem pale" he asked sounding worried.

"y-yeah im fine just tired" i lied just thinking about me and jason again just made me want to be sick but he's the reason i have gave up. zach skated away going back to what he was doing.

after the warm ups i NEED to be the last off or my pre - game rituals don't work and i'll need to start everything over again or that's my game ruined. i was the last off i went into the guys locker room and sat in my stall and listened to coach do his pre-game speech.

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