The ride to the college is silent. I guess we both have a lot of things going on in our minds. You wanna know what I was thinking?
I was being selfish, thinking only about myself. I was recalling my life. My damaged, broken life. Everything was going fine with it, but I guess too much happiness is just too perfect. Then, everything went upside- down. The only thing that kept me going was my dad and my dream of becoming a writer. Since I was a little girl, all I ever wanted to do was write. I felt like words could literally suffocate me, unless I wrote them down. When I did something wrong, I used to apologise by letter, because it felt more real to me. I don't know how else to put it. All I know is that it is my biggest dream and I am just a few more steps away from reaching it.
I was thinking about how empty my life has been and how stupid I've been for trusting people. I shouldn't have. I should've known better than to do so.
" Katy, are you Ok? You kind of zoned out " my dad's voice brought me around. " You have been so quiet. It is so unlike you " my dad tries to joke around.
" Yeah, dad. Just thinking. I just..... I-I just miss her dad. I miss her so much " I say and I hardly hold back some tears that try to escape from my eyes.
" Me too honey. Me too " my dad says and his face immediately frowns.
" Sorry dad! I didn't mean to make you feel sad " I try to apologise to him. What was I thinking bringing that back to him ? You stupid mouth ! " Hey, what was that about me talking a lot ? well.. I can't help it if I have interesting things to say." I tease him, trying to push away the dark clouds that I unwittingly brought on.
" Oh, yeah. I'm sure you do. " my dad fakes a smile.
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We are finally on campus. I can feel my heart beating faster and I just don't know why am I being so afraid. I mean it is just college. I brought my ass down here without anybody's help, so I can certainly make it. Adding the fact that I was born to be a writer and it's my dream of a lifetime.... But then again....I guess I am just too afraid of people...NEW PEOPLE! And I ... I-I am not ready to let people in just yet. I have had some bad experiences before and... "You coward" I say to myself. " Stop acting like a dumb. You are strong. You can make it. Just be yourself" I keep repeating to myself. Let us be straight. I don't care what other people think of me. I never did because I understood that the sooner you stop caring what others think of you, the sooner you can show your true colours. That's been my motto in life. " Be the best you can be! Be who you want to be! "
" Earth to Katy!!!! " my dad says as he is snapping his fingers in front of my face.
" I zoned out again didn't I ? " I ask.
" YOU think ?? I' ve been talking to you for about two minutes and your face was totally blank.What's with the thinking? You are not chickening out are you ??? " my dad says.
" Bite your tongue dad. You know I would never do that. Besides if I think a lot, it means a have a brain. You should be proud " I say and move to the car trunk to take my luggage.
" You and your responses " my dad giggles. " Let me do that for you" and then he grabs my stuff and we start walking to the college secretariat. Oh. and have I ever mentioned that I got in to Princeton? Hell yeah, I am here. Anyway, we found out were my room was and then we got there.
My dorm is pleasant, but of course it misses my touch , but later on I am going to decorate it my own way. You see, the thing is that I had to share it with this girl...
"Hi, you must be my roommate. I am Rein. You are???? " the girl introduced herself to us. She had already unpacked and she was, I have to say, messy. Oh, who cares!! I am kinda messy myself and that's why I almost high-fived the girl. I know i said I don't like new people and that I am afraid of them, but for some reason, unknown to me, I liked her. She was so beautiful and I thought to myself " I look like a monkey compared to her" but then again, who cares. I am unique in my own way...Anyway, I was supposed to talk about her. She has gorgeous blue eyes that seem so angelic, long blonde curly hair. She is about my height ( well we at least have that in common) and has an elegant figure. I must have been staring at her for quite a long time because my dad pinched me to make me react and I noticed she raised her eyebrow.
" I am Crystal, but everybody calls me Katy. Yeah, I know it doesn't make sense. You should ask my dad about that " I say and I point at my dad who was just standing there.
" Hi, I am Jim, Katy's father. Nice to meet you." he introduces himself.
" nice to meet you too, sir." she says to my father with a smile in her face. My God...she has such a perfect smile. " So we are roommates from now and on" she turns to me. " I really hope we can get along. I like you. " she says.
Am I supposed to say I like you too?? No, I am not saying that. Instead I just say : " Thank you. I hope so too." There. That was better.
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"Katy, I should better get going now. I brought you here, I met your roommate, I know were you live and I am more calm now. " my dad says after twenty minutes we spent talking to Rein and getting to know her.
" Ok, dad. I love you and we'll talk over the phone. Don't even think you got rid of me. You know I am a pain in the ass. " I tease him
" A pain I would gladly put up with 'til the rest of my life " my dad says as he kisses my forehead. " I love you honey".
And then off he goes..I am left in here with the new girl staring at me. So I decide to start unpacking.
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" So were are you from ?' rein asks me. Well she has the right to know. I mean I already know were she is from, how many members does her family consists of and etc etc.
" I am from New York " I say.
" I have always wanted to go there " she notes.
" yeah, It is the city who never sleeps, you know. But I really think he should sleep some times. It would be a lot better." I say smiling.
" yeah , it really should. You seem so nice. And funny you know ? Has anybody ever told you that ? " she says, so naturally, just being friendly. I like her. We could really be friends together. She doesn't seem like one that would stab me in the back. So I decided to open up a bit. I can not live in fear.
" Yes they have, but they never meant it. They were actually just making fun of me. " I say and smile shyly. When I said open up I didn't mean So open, but there was something about her. I really felt we could be best friends. And when you know, you just know.
She came to my bed and hugged me. " Well, they must've been really stupid" she said. I hugged her back and I felt friendship again. I missed that feeling....Not that I really had it.
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Broken pieces
RomanceKaty is just a young girl who has been through a lot. Despite that , she manages to move on with the help of her father. She is this sweet, sensitive, smart and funny girl. All she ever wants is to make her father proud and to become a professional...