Set My Heart Ablaze

Ch. 18

Blaze's POV

We're days away from a sold out world tour and I'm nervous as shit. I never could have imagined that I would be doing this. My life is the complete opposite of how it was a few years ago and sometimes it feels too surreal. I don't even know if I deserve any of this.

I'm going to miss Mya like crazy. I know we fight and she's hard to deal with at times, but I care about her so much. I want to see her live out her dreams and reach her full potential.

That's why before I leave I'm meeting up with Hanna. I know she's been supplying drugs to Mya, but I don't understand why. I need her to stay away from her before she ruins her life. I won't forgive myself if I let that happen.

"Long time no see," Hanna says as she lets me in her apartment. "What's up?"

Truth be told I think I've been avoiding her for a while now. Since I've been so wrapped up in other stuff there hasn't been a need to see her and I'm also not happy that she's gotten so close to Mya.

"I just wanted to see you before I leave," I take a seat on the couch.

"Aw," she says sarcastically. "Now what's the real reason because you haven't spoken to me in like a month."

Sensing her attitude I decide to get straight to the point. "Why are you hanging out with Mya?"

"Because she's cool. Why else?"

"You never hang out with anyone. Why her?"

She rolls her eyes. "What because my world isn't revolving around you anymore I must have ulterior motives?"

"You know what I mean," I sigh.

"No I don't," she yells. "So say what you feel you need to say."

"I want you to stop being friends with Mya. You're a bad influence on her," I yell back.

She chuckles. "Isn't that the pot calling the kettle black. I'm not influencing her to do shit you haven't already introduced her to. Whatever she does is on you."

"I never let her do coke," I say angrily.

"But you let me," she fires back. "You had no problem introducing your best friend, the person who's always been in your corner to that shit. You drug me down this road with you, even when I was kicking and screaming. You couldn't stand to do it alone, be this nasty, lying, addicted person. You needed me to hold your hand even if it fucked up my life too. So why does she get special treatment? You barely know the bitch. She hasn't shown you an ounce of the loyalty I always have."

"Hanna you've always been there for me, but haven't I done the same for you?" I question. "You were running from your fucked up life too. I didn't force you to do anything."

She looks at me with sadness and anger in her eyes. "That's the fucking point Blaze. You never force anyone to do anything. You just suck them in with your needy ways. Introduce them to your world and then act like you don't know how dangerous it is. You're pathetic. At least own up to that."

I stand up. "I'm done. It was stupid of me to think you would be happy that I've found someone I really like and try to help me be a better person for her. You're just jealous that I never picked you."

She glares at me but she doesn't speak so I continue. "Yeah Hanna I know you wish it was you. I'm not blind. I know you've had feelings for me all this time and now you're pissed that it's not going to happen."

Hanna chuckles coldly. "You know, I see why you like that girl so much. I mean she's fine as hell and her pussy is bomb. When I had her leg on my shoulder and my face buried between her thighs with her juices running down my chin I really understood you. It became clear why you're so fucked up in the head over her."

"What did you fucking say?" I clench my fists.

"She didn't tell you that she let me eat her out?" she laughs. "See that's the shit I'm talking about. No loyalty."

It takes everything in me not to punch her in her face. I can't believe that Mya would do this to me, with my best friend of all people.

"Fuck you Hanna," I fight back my tears. "Stay the hell away from me."

I leave her house in a fit of rage and head straight to Mya's. I send her burner phone a text message asking her to come outside. As soon as I pull up she waiting for me.

"Blaze what's going on? My moms-," she starts once I step out of my car but I cut her off.

"You fucking hoe. You lying ass hoe," I yell and she backs away. "You fucked my best friend."

"Woah why the hell would I do that? You need to watch your mouth," she yells back.

"When I asked you in her fucking apartment if something was going on you lied to my face. Were y'all fucking the whole time?"

"No," she screams. "It was a mistake. I was drunk and I took a pill-"

"See that's the fucking problem," I scream back. "You and these fucking drugs. I thought you would stop. Hanna is doing this to you to spite me Mya."

"Everything isn't about you Blaze. I didn't let her eat me out because of you. I don't do drugs because of you. I don't hang out with her because of you. Hell I barely even think about you," she confesses.

I can't hold back my tears anymore when she says that. Between her and Hanna I feel like someone has ripped my heart out and stepped on it. How the hell did the happiest moment of my life turn into one of the worst?

"Why? Why me? I opened up to you. I wanted to be a better person for you and stand up to your parents but this is what you do? I'm so done. Whatever you choose to do from this point on is on you."

Her eyes get wide and she starts to panic.

"Blaze wait ok h-hold on. I didn't mean that," she tries to grab my arm but I push her away. "I should have told you. I wasn't trying to lie about it. I swear it only happened once and I regret it. Please baby just calm down."

"What is going on out here?" Billie says as she and Alissa rush out of the house and down the driveway.

"Go to hell Mya."

"Hey don't talk to my daughter like that," Alissa yells.

"You don't have to worry about me talking to your daughter ever again," I get in my car and speed off.

Fuck Hanna and fuck Mya. I'll never trust anyone else again.

*excuse any errors