Changes (Lisrene)

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"Care to explain this!?" I can't help but to shouted at the engineerings that I am handling, it's just a very simple task that I gave them but they can't even do it properly. 

They're looking at the ground while letting me to burst all of my anger towards them, Who would be happy with that? We lost a lot of offers because of that.

"That's enough already Irene,"Solar said while trying to stop me, "No, that's their job to do! That's just simple why can't they do it properly." I massage the bridge of my nose while thinking of the proper reason I'll give to my mom later if she find this out.

"Shouting at them won't do anything." Solar said and gave a dismissive wave to them making me more annoyed.

"And babying them won't do anything." I sharply said making her shut, This is the reason why I don't let them to enter my office they always see me wrong even if I'm only doing this for company too, and for the workers sake.

"Leave."I mumbled but already enough for her to hear it and rush to the door.

"This is stressing me so damn much." I said to myself while looking at the ceiling of my office, If only I can do everything for them I'll do but it's their job to do, they need to work hard too.

I decided to let my anger cool off by leaving the office early, I just want to leave everything temporarily. It's choking me, I can't feel any happiness while doing this.

Since when I lose her, I lose everything. My passion, My dream. It feels so suffocating i can't take it anymore.

I didn't saw her earlier I wonder what happened, She usually go to work early cause sometimes we bumped to each other without saying anything.

Those pretty doe eyes that I fell with looks like someone already owned it, I Don't want to hurt myself but that's what I see in her eyes. The galaxy that I used to see there when we're together Is nowhere to found.

I wonder what would I feel if I saw her with someone already, I don't know anymore. I'm regretting this life that I choose.

"Two order of this flavor please." I mumbled while pointing at one of the flavors,  I waited patiently for my ice cream and find a clear table to use.

I found myself walking early at the morning in our neighborhood trying to find something new, I took a leave for a week and today is the first day of it.

Trying to ease my mind by eating this ice cream and watching all of the people who's minding their own business outside of this shop. How I wish that I can just leave my work and never come back again.

"I still doubt it." I heard someone spoke at my back, I can sense that someone is talking behind and I don't want to look like I'm eavesdropping their conversation so I acted like I'm busy with my phone.

"You don't understand me, I need to work with her." Wait, that voice sound so familiar to me.

"She's still your ex, What will our friends said if they found out that you're still talking to her?" I heard the other one groaned,"They don't need to say something, I know what I am doing Seul." I got shocked when I heard the latter said that, I knew it, it's Lisa who's talking to Seulgi, that's explain why their voice is so familiar to me.

"She left you Lis, Not just once but twice.Who knows if you still love her right?" I got frozen on my seat,I bite my lips trying to ease the nervous that I felt When I heard what Seulgi said.

"I just want to remind you Seul I already have someone, you should not worry about that." That was the last thing that I heard before the voices immediately disappeared, I don't know if they just stopped talking or they already leave.