written: january 28, 2021 around 9:40-9:53a.m.
posted & named: february 8, 2021 from 4:45-4:56p.m., reposted at 9:45a.m. on february 23rd.
inspiration: my feelings each day + the song no love by eminem ft. lil wayne was playing
song: lonely soul - u.n.k.l.e. ft. richard ashcroft
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lately, i've been even more lonely than usual
and it feels like life is leaving me behind.
i feel unfulfilled-- i'm not happy.
i don't know what to do with myself,
i don't know what i'm doing.
going through the motions, i suppose.
i just want to feel whole again...
did i ever?
i just want to feel okay.
yesterday, i told her i want to smoke
when i don't even like the smell of weed or
the thought of using any drugs at all.
what is wrong with me?
why can't i find peace?
how'd i find myself feeling so lonely,
so stuck inside myself and numb again?
but am i truly numb? i still feel,
gosh, i feel far too much.
i don't understand myself anymore,
can't tell my feelings, my mindsets,
dreams, friends, goals...
they haven't left me behind—
they're right there, yet...
so is she, so are they.
i'm glad they have new friends,
i just wish i fit in or
had some of my own.
what is wrong with me?
why don't i like touch?
what do i do knowing [that] she likes me?
how do i get him to stop suffocating me?
should i try drawing again? something!
i feel myself recoiling into myself again,
feel i'll lie my okays and hide when not.
i'm so sad, so confused.
i'm hurting. i don't know what to do.
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