Wait For Me

34 | nervous

❝ 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕
𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅'𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒆𝒏𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆
𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒘𝒆 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕
𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑰'𝒎 𝒄𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕
𝒕𝒊𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏, 𝒘𝒆'𝒍𝒍 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒄𝒌 𝒂𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒆
𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 ❞

𝑻𝒉𝒆 1975

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T H E A

Yesterday was really hard. To be honest, it's been playing on my mind ever since it happened and somewhere deep down, I wish it hadn't. Maybe I did overreact? But then at the same time, he should know better too.

The girl literally hates my guts, trashed my car, threatens me every time I see her, and yet he still slept with her before coming to my rescue and then was intimate with me. So surely that can't be overreacting.

I went to the garage with Sienna to collect my car and questioned Josiah about the cost of the repairs, but he explained that Rio had already covered it. Typical Rio.

Whatever Josiah did to my car in the space of a few hours was nothing short of a miracle. How he did it, I have no idea but I couldn't possibly explain how grateful I was if I tried for hours and hours.

It looks brand new. As though there are not bumps, scratches or any other kind of damage to it at all.

Unlike the last time, Rio's left me countless messages asking me to call or text to let him know that I'm okay. The others are just the same old 'please talk to me' .. 'don't be like this Thea' .. 'let me fix this.'

There's nothing to fix. I'm not being used and it's as simple as that.

Jacey invited me to a race tonight.. and now.. some may say I'm stupid but I accepted. I don't want to not show up and make it look as though Navy and Palmer have won.

They're not going to scare me, threaten me and make me fearful of going to a place of my own choosing. No fucking way.

Even if I see Rio there and he's with Navy, that's fine. It will just prove to me that our maturity levels really aren't the same.

Let's see.

Shyla and Aven agreed to come with me tonight purely because they don't trust me alone. They know I'll only end up doing something that will probably end up regretting in the long run if I'm left unsupervised.

By that I mean killing Navy and Palmer.

They're both fully up to date with everything that's happened and to be honest, if I don't get to Navy and Palmer first, I think they might. They just don't have the same literal sinister intentions as me.

Shame, I know.

Jacey is racing at Desert Valley tonight and it's car night this time. No motorbikes.. just cars. I'm actually feeling quite excited for this race but god knows why. I probably shouldn't be.. but here I am.