"i love you"

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hinata had never really been alone, he'd always had someone beside him, through thick and thin, that was until his life turned to utter disaster.

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hinata's thoughts-
nights would get really lonely without someone there to comfort me, i'd usually wake up to the yawning of someone close to me, their fresh morning breath against my neck, causing my hairs to rise and my body to shudder, but, it felt good.

but now, there isn't that person to give me warmth, i'm alone in a cold, isolated room.
but i can only blame myself for such a 'tragedy'. if only i could've controlled myself in a time like this, things wouldn't have turned out this way.

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hinata was currently a collage student, studying to get his A levels in the gcse's he'd previously taken, although he wasn't the smartest of the class, the teachers loved him for his bright personality and smile. to them he was just a ball of sunshine. in hinata's current collage, there are dorms, 2 people per one, now hinata was lucky enough to have a roommate, he got close enough to that person that they began dating, over the weeks and months of being together, they got closer and closer giving hinata the idea that nothing could break them apart.

but oh boy was he was wrong.

hinatas now ex broke up with him and immediately cut off all contact he previously had with him, including moving out of the dorm he shared. hinata didn't have a clue why he got broken up with since his ex didn't bother to tell him before he left.

this left hinata in quite a state, he'd constantly attempt to control his bright personality, strong bursts of energy and anything that seemed annoying with it. it caused a lot of people to catch on and realise that something had happened since he was everything but his usual self, teachers noticed and tried to get him to talk, but he'd give a fake, almost-real-looking smile and proceed with, "i'm okay!". not even his friends could get through to him, when they asked the same thing, he'd always just reply with, "suga, daichi, yamaguchi, i keep telling you! i'm okay! what's with the sudden concern guys? i'm just like i always am." or something along those lines.

he wasn't blind to what he was doing, he knew that he shouldn't change for anyone and to be himself, but he couldn't help but feel irritated with the way he was since the person he forever loved and thought he'd spend all his life with just up and left out of no where.

though, it was quite a struggle to stay this way, it was hard adapting to the new lifestyle he had created for himself and sometimes, he wished he'd never tried to change at the start, but he'd back that up by telling himself that he's too far in to turn back.

but really, was he?

- just a warning, there are going to be a/n every page because i love adding them *lip bite*