Imagine if...?

Chapter 7: Mistakes and Trains

Clove's POV

I wake up in a beautiful meadow, with the sun shining down on me and the birds singing. There are flowers everywhere and there is a little river that flows so peacefully, it's all so beautiful. I want to stay here forever but for some reason I know I can't. I hear a voice but it's in my head.
"Clove, you cannot stay here you must go back", the voice says.
"Why? It's so beautiful here and there is no pain.", I say.
"Because your time is not yet done, you are still needed", the voice says gingerly and at that moment I know it is God.
"Must I really go back?", I ask.
"Yes, but you will come back when it's your time dear child", the voice says. The man suddenly appears and he kisses my forehead and tells me that I must go, I oblige him and begin to walk towards the tree that I came from. That was very weird, we talked but never actually made a sound, we touched but never actually felt one another. I walk towards the tree and am suddenly thrust back into reality. I open my eyes to bright lights, I'm in the hospital but why?, oh I remember I tried to kill myself, I feel ashamed. I see my parents shuffle to the hospital bed with grateful looks.
"Oh my God, your ok, we thought we would lose you!", my mom says as she engulfs me an a very tight hug.
"I'm sorry, for what I did, I wasn't thinking and I was being selfish, and I'm sorry", I say disappointed.
"It's okay, Clo, everything is alright now", my dad says. I notice that none of my siblings are here and I wonder how long I've been here.
"How long have I been here?", I ask while fumbling with the hospital bracelet.
"About 5 hours, the kids are all home except Cece, she's downstairs getting coffee.", my mom says. Then as if on cue Cece walks in and once she sees me and dull green eyes light up.
"Thank God your okay!", she's says as she hugs me. I just smile as I don't know how to respond, my parents tell us that there gonna go find the doctor to see if I can go home. I just sit while Cece stands at the bottom of my bed. Then all of a sudden I'm in the cafe with Bianka and I hear her screaming.
"Why didn't you save me?"
"Why did you let me die?"
I don't know what to do this has to be fake right?, she's dead right?, I feel my self hyperventilating and I begin to scream and claw at my own hair, this can't be happening. Suddenly the scene changes and the cafe turns back into the hospital and Bianka turns into a scared Cece.
"Woah, Clo, what just happened?", Cece says.
"I....I don't know", I reply. My parents then walk in with the doctor and me and Cece both go silent.
"So Miss. Kentwell, are you sure your okay?", the doctor asks.
"Yes, I really wanna get home!", I say eagerly.
"Okay, then we'll everything seems fine!", he says as he flips through papers in his clipboard.
"Thank you doctor", my dad says as the man walks out.
"Clo-", Cece starts but I interrupt her.
"Well I can't wait to get home, hospitals suck", I say as I get up. Cece throws me a look and I plead that she doesn't say anything to our parents and she just throws me a look of you better explain later. We walk in silence to the car and and then drive in silence on the way home. We pull in the driveway and get out of the car.
"Cece take Clo up to her bedroom and make sure she's okay", my mom says as she stays downstairs to talk to my dad.
"Ok", Cece says as she grabs my hand and she leads me up the stairs quietly. We stay silent until we reach my room, we walk in and she shuts the door, I walk over to my bed and look at little Adrianna, she's so beautiful when she's sleeping.
"Clove Aurora Kentwell, your better tell me what happened right now!", Cece says in a demanding voice.
"Well, I had like a hallucination, I think, I was in the cafe with Bianka and she was telling me that I could have saved her and that it was my fault she died. And it was really scary", I say while I start tearing up, ugh why do I have to be so emotional, I'm a career I shouldn't have emotion but I do and that's my weakness.
"Oh come here", Cece says as she hugs me, despite us being twins she is still taller than me by a bit.
"Please don't tell anyone", I ask pleadingly.
"Fine but if it happens again promise me that your gonna tell Mom and Dad", she says as she hold out her pinky like when we were kids.
"I promise!", I say as I curl my pinkie finger around hers while chuckling slightly.
"Go to bed now, goodnight, love ya!", she says as she gets up and starts walking towards the door.
"Goodnight, love ya Cece, and thank you for everything", I say gratefully as I lay down next to Adrianna and begin to fall asleep, Cece nods and smiles in return as she walks out. As I'm slowly drifting to sleep I remember what happened with Cato and I begin to cry, any thing that we had is gone now, he doesn't even remember his own name, I let out quiet sobs and eventually fall asleep to the sound of crying, my crying.