My wild

Pause -Eleven

4 months ago

I spent the night crying. I wanted to fake sick so bad but I know I can't run away forever.

I barely got any sleep in fear of what everyone was thinking, but deep down I knew. It's not like I had any friends before but I at least was respected.

My reputation and future in the town are most likely ruined.

I was surprised that when Toni first told me she got a job because normally no company would want to be associated with anything none traditional.

I got up for school and groaned. I rubbed my eyes to check if it was all a dream.

I got ready for school and headed downstairs. I didn't even feel like eating breakfast I just wanted to get this day over with.

"Hun we have something to ask you," my mom said sitting on the couch.

Here we go.

I sat down across from my parents. My mom gave me the fakest smile and my dad worried painted all over his face.

"We've heard a few rumours about you being... a lesbian," My mom said softly. I didn't know whether or not, to tell the truth.

I should feel so nervous right now but, I don't. I feel angry. I should have gotten to do this my way. This is my last straw with Toni. I hate her so much

"And," I said in a monotone voice. My dad pulled my mom closer. They were looking at me like I just killed someone.

"Well is it true," My mom asked with tears in her eyes. "Ya," I said looking down not ready to look at my moms' reaction.

"Look at me," My mom said in a stern voice. I've never heard my mom ever speak like that. I looked up at her. My mom had hot tears streaming down her face.

"No child of mine will live under this roof living such a sinful life!" My mom yelled. My eyes started to tear up.

"All this time I had you under my nose with that Toni girl thinking that you could turn her to the light" My mom continued.

I was a bit confused because we weren't even that religious so all of this hatred was coming straight from her heart.

"How dare you do this to your family, do you recognize how selfish this is, Melody?" My mom questioned.

I sat in silence, I had no words for them. My mom got up and approached me. I felt two punches come down on me.

I let out a groan in pain. My dad sat there watching it all with no emotion on his face.

My dad looked at me like he tried to warn me. No fucking help.

I got up and ran out the door to my car. I couldn't afford to skip school because I've already missed so much skipping with Toni.

I pulled up in my schools' parking lot barely thinking straight. I felt everyone's stares on even though I hadn't looked at anyone.

I headed straight inside to the first period. I sat in silence waiting for the class to start.

West came in and took his seat next to me. The silence between us felt very unnatural and awkward.

"You know I'm sorry for not being able to stay," I said breaking the silence.

"Just don't" West said coldly. I took a deep breath in hopes to regain my sanity.

The period was going by way too slow. I didn't want to go home, but I didn't want to be here.

"Melody is your nose okay," My teacher asked. Shit, I had no time to cover anything up because I was in the middle of getting abused.

Toni looked over at me with regret on her face. Toni knew exactly what would happen if people found out, she had a first-hand experience.

"Can I be excused?" Did I ask my teacher? He nodded in approval.

"Ya get out here you fucking dyke" I heard someone yell from the back of the room.

I tuned everything out after that. Everything was getting a little too overwhelming so it's like I just pause.

I heard someone get up and yelling but I had no clue what was actually going on. I couldn't even blink.

Toni started shaking my shoulder trying to get me back to normal.

"Toni Shalifoe to the principles office" I heard. A few minutes later I started coming back to real life, unfortunately.

Putting life on pause and just tuning out is the best option at all times.

I heard the bell ring. I got up and headed to my next class.

I had art with Martha. Art was always calming and Martha was actually very entertaining, the way her eyes light up at new things was so precious.

"You know Toni still loves you," Martha said out of nowhere. "She has a funny way of showing it" I replied "You don't have to advocate for Toni" I continued.

"I'm just her best friend you know," Martha explained. "Her only friend" I replied.

"I'm sorry today has just been a day" I apologized. Martha didn't deserve to be spoken to like that.

"I know you're going through things," Martha said sincerely. Martha walked over to me and hugged me.

This hug meant more than I can even put into words. I pulled away getting a bit emotional. I smiled at her in appreciation.

"Don't give up on her" Martha said softly. I nodded in response. I don't think Toni and I could ever go back to be even civil.

I will never forgive her for this.