Desperate Love (On-Going)

Chapter 12

I was busy scanning some papers in my office when my secretary enter my office.

" I'm sorry to interrupt you maam, but it's already 5 in the afternoon" my secretary said while smiling.

"Oh, hindi ko namalayan. Thank you Jane" I responded with a smile. Tumango naman sya at lumabas na sa aking opisina.

If your curious kung bakit ganun lang ang sinabi ng sekratarya ko sa akin, well it's because of me, forgetting how fast time pass everyday. I tell her to remind me when it was already five in the afternoon so I can go home.

I cleared my table and pile up the papers that I needed for tomorrow morning so that I can already go home. I can't be late because someone is waiting for me. I mean, yeah. He is always waiting for me. And remembering how adorable he is makes me smile.

"Jane, I'll be going now. Just fix your things so you can go home now also"

" Yes, sure maam. Ingat po kayo" I nodded in response and headed to my car.

If your asking where the hell I am is that, I am still at New York. Ever since I left Philippines, I never came back. My friends always visit us here in New York. Lalong lalo na tuwing birthday nang anak ko. I gave birth here also. And its been five years simula nang huli kaming nagkita ni Tom. I don't have any news or updates about him. Well, I can say that I don't care about him and I've move on. I have my son now, and I am not alone. I have Lyle Alexis now and I wish nothing more.

I was about to open the door when it suddenly opens and my son bright smile welcomes me. Je immediately run towards me to give me a hug and kisses.

"I miss you mom" he said after standing straight. I kissed him in the cheeks and he smile wider.

" Imiss you too baby" and as expected he reacts.

"Mom! I'm not a baby anymore. I'm a grown up now" he said while pouting like a duck.

"Awww, baby you're so cute when you pout" I chuckles and head towards my room so I can clean myself. After that I go down stairs to cook our dinner.

Naabutan kong naka upo ang aking anak sa harap ng aming tv habang ang mata nya ay nakabantay lang sa aking gagawin. I smiled, he really look like his father. His physical features spit his father image. One look and anyone can tell. Hays. Napailing na lang ako sa aking na naiisip. I'm sure hindi naman sila magkikita nang ama nya. And now for sure he has also his own family. I don't want to give Lyle any hope of having a whole family. I was glad that he doesn't asks anything about his father after I explained everything to him.

"Mom?"

"Yes baby?"

"Tsik. You're spacing out mom. I was calling you for how many times" nakabusangot na sagot ng anak ko sa akin.

"Oh sorry. By the way what do you want for dinner?" pilit na ngumiti ako sa aking anak.

"Ummm,..."  natatawa talaga ako tuwing makikita ko syang nag-iisip. " Can I have adobo for dinner mom?"

"Okay then"

"Yehey! Thank you mommy!"

Lyle was just five years old but the way he think, he really seems to know how to act as a grown up. He is smart also. He speaks english fluenty, some korean language and of course I also teach him tagalog. And I find it cute when he speaks tagalog. You know like, a british guy saying mahal kita? Parang ang conyo lang.

"Lyle, come here. Lets eat dinner" I said smiling. He was about to go here in the kitchen when someone knock on the door. We're not expecting someone to come so I slowly walk towards my son.

" Sit here. Mommy's gonna go to the door to see who is it, okay?" I smiled to assure him that I will be okay and it will be fine. I was about to stand up when he hold my hands .

"Lets go together mom" nakangiti nya ding sabi sa akin. Hays. Anu pa nga ba?

"Okay, just stay behind my back, okay?" tumango naman ang anak ko. Papalapit kami nang papalapit sa pinto habang humihigpit ang paghawak ko sa kamay nang anak ko. Fuck! Why am I nervous ? I slowly open the door.

"SURPRISE!!"

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!"

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY ACE!"

Gulat akong napatingin sa dalawang tao sa harap ng pintuan at sa  anak ko.

"HAHAHAHA! you really seemed to be surprise Ace! Did Alexis really act that good?" natatawang tanong ni Nate sa akin.

" Hays. Naisahan nyo ko dun ha! Baliw talaga kayo! Sinama nyu pa talaga ang anak ko sa kalokohan nyu! " natatawang sagot ko sa kanilang dalawa.

"Sorry mom! I didn't thought that you will be that nervous" sabay kaming napatingin sa anak ko.

"Awww, our baby is so big na" naiiyak na sambit ni Niche sabay yakap sa anak ko.

"Tita ninang I am not a baby anymore" nakangusong sagot nito.

"Really? Okay big boy. Lets go in" natatawang sabi naman ni Nate sa kanya. Sabay kaming pumasok .

"Mabuti na lang at medyo naparami ang luto ko. Ba't hindi man lang kasi kayo nagsabi?" tanong ko sa dalawa kong kaibigan.

"Dzuhh, edi pagsinabi namin hindi na surprise yun! Hahahaha" napairap na lang ako sa sagot ni Niche.

This was our set up for the past 5 years. They always go to our place every time na may okasyon. Pero kung tutuusin kahit wala namang okasyon ay nandito padin ang dalawang to eh.

After dinner, Nate and Alexis was busy watching Netflix movie while me and Niche was busy cleaning the kitchen.

"Girl? Wala ka pa din ba talang balak bisitahin yung branch mu sa Plilippines?" tanong ni Niche sakin.

"Hays. I don't know"

"You know, I know it's always been hard to manage your business when the owner is far right? You don't really want to go back?"

" I'm afraid. Panu pagnagkita ang anak ko at si Tom? I don't want to give hope to my son Niche"

Nilapitan nya ako at niyakap.
"Its fine, Alexis also deserve to know, you know that right?" I nodded.

"See? It's been five years. That was long enough. Just let your son meet his father and let your son decide fo his own. We know how much Alexis love you"

"I'll think about it"

After that drama we headed upstairs. Hindi na rin namin na abutan ang anak ko at si Nate sa living room kaya malamang tulog na yun.

Naabutan namin si Nate nakakalapag lang kay Alexis aa kama. I come near to my son, and kiss him in the forehead. Inayos ko muna ang kumot bago nag umpisa maglakad para sana patayin ang ilaw, pero napahinto ako nang marinig ko ang salitang binitawan ng anak ko habang natutulog.

"D-dad"

Napabuntong hininga ako at napatingin sa mga kasama ko. I think I am left with no choice. I close my son door before facing my friends.

"We're going back to the Philippines" I said with finality. This will be for my son.

"Are you sure?" nag-aalalang tanong ni Nate sa akin.

"Well, its now or never right?"

"Okay. We're settled then. Lets go home together" Niche said smiling kaya napairap nanaman ako.

"I'll gonna make some call para maayos na lahat bago tayo umalis"

Yun lang at isa-isa kaming pumasok sa kwarto.

-ally💚