Only time will tell

Chapter 6: Moments Of Dispair

I was alone again. A feeling of emptiness over took my body. This was the first time in a while I felt like this. Ugh why did I attach myself to someone living literaly 3 centuries before my time.

I was now standing in the interdimentional space. I looked back at the memories I made in 1795. I guess this is goodbye.

I looked at my watch I had pressed in random numbers so I might as well see if I screwed myself over. 1850? Not that bad I guess. I was then knocked out again.

I woke up in a hospital this time. A
change of scenery I thought to myself. The same old smell of sanitized rooms fell to my nose just as the boring white walls was all I saw.

A nurse came into the room.

"Oh you are finally awake" she stated.

"Yes how long have I been out for?"

"Well not too long you were found yesterday. So around 24 hours" she replied.

"How did I get here?" I asked.

"Well some gentleman called an ambulance for you. Hmm what was his name again? Oh well he was very nice and even visisted you during the night." She replied and added "He placed those flowers there" she pointed at the table beside me.

The only person that popped up in my head was him. He had for sure found me laying around and took me to the hospital.

"I presume you have taken care of me so I thank you."

"Oh your welcome I was only doing my job" she answered smiling.

"Can I get my discharge papers?" I asked her.

I need to find him.

"Well of course you can, it does not seem that something is wrong with you" She said leaving to get the papers.

I looked at my watch. It was still attached to my wrist I guess he told them to leave it there.

The nurse came back with discharge papers and I filled them in.

"Well everything is done now. You can go change your clothes in the bathroom" she told me.

I looked a little confused since the clothes I was wearing before was a hanfu. I don't think I could quite fit in with it on. It was a little out of style if I may say so myself.

The nurse interrubted my thoughts and said "The kind gentleman left some clothes for you. I already put them in the bathroom."

"Thank you"

He had planned more than I thought. I got changed and went out in the city. I needed to find him. I needed to ask him.

I went to the harbour. That man took a liking to the sea. So I went down there but he was no where in sight. I thought about where he could have gone in this city but I had no idea anymore. I wished I could just give up on life right now. Everything seemed a little too much right now.

Maybe I was just thinking of her. I had no feelings for her. I wasn't in love with her but she brought a sense of safetiness for me. A sense of family perhaps I don't quite know anymore.

I looked out at the ocean with a grieving look just like he had looked in 1795. A similar look of feeling overwhelmed with depressed thoughts. Oh I wished to get rid of all sorrow from my body.

I hid my face in my hands. Why was it so hard to let go, to forget, to live like before. I used to just forget my feelings but she made me feel validated and brought out my hidden feelings. I don't know how to hide them away again.