I Will Always Fight For You

Fifteen

Chris's POV: 

I hated those three days i was away for. But i just landed in the airport waiting for my brother to pick me up. 

Scott drove me home and was going to go and get Dodger from Carly's house for me. I walked in my door and found a letter on the ground addressed to me. I swear to god if a fan found my house i am going to lose my shit. I picked it up and sat down on the couch. But the letter was much worse then a fan finding my house. In fact i would take that over this letter any day. 

Dear Chris,

You are probably wondering why am i writing you a letter. Yesterday i was able to get off work early so i flew down to New York to surprise you. But what i found breaks every part of me.

I walked out of that elevator and saw you kissing her and not breaking away from it. She opened the door and you didn't try push her off you, instead you walked in too.

I trusted you to go and kiss another woman without actually doing anything. I said yes because i trusted you with everything that i am and you broke it. 

I can't even look at you. So, i have to do it this way. I'm not going to be that person that breaks up over phone, though. Chris, i love you with everything that i had and am. And you somehow broke everything. 

I have known you as far back as i can remember and longer. I made a choice to start something with you, and now i can't help but think i made the wrong decision. 

So, goodbye. I don't know if i will ever be able to face you. But it certainly won't be soon. So, i love you, but i can't do this. Not after breaking like this. 

-Allison

I couldn't help but start crying after reading this. But she has everything wrong. Yes, i was there pushed against the door, but SHE was kissing me. SHE opened my door and pushed me in. My hands were only on her waist because i was trying to push her off me. But Ally must have left as soon i was pushed in because as soon as i was off her i kicked her out of my room. I pushed her out the door and locked it behind her. I told Gucci that they were just going to have to work with what they had from the last two days because there was no way i am going to see that woman ever again. I spent the rest of the day before getting on the plane in my room trying to figure out if i should tell Ally or not. 

Fuck this! I am going to at least try to talk to her. Allison Harper Carter is the love of my life and i won't give up. I love her way too much to give up. I have waited since i was a teenager to tell her i love her. 

I grabbed my keys and ran out to my car. I got in my car and turned it on and left quickly to go to Ally's work. I figured she was there. I tried calling her the entire way there but she never answered. It didn't even ring. I pulled over and tried texting her. But it said that it couldn't send. Damn it! She blocked me. 

I pulled up to her work and got out. Thank god one no was there besides her coworkers because i wanted her to listen. I also didn't want to blow up online with a clip of me trying everything i could to get her to listen. 

I opened the door but i couldn't see her. "ALLISON! Please! Ally, please listen to me! I know you are here!" I begged because i saw her in the back with her back facing me. Hunter came out from behind the counter and stood in front of me. "She doesn't want to talk to you." He said sternly and looking me in the eyes. I just decided to ignore him, "Ally please! I love you more then anything! Just let me explain!" I begged. I tried pushing past him but then Vincent came and helped Hunter to push me out the door. They locked me out and went back to Ally. 

I went back in my car and screamed in pain about thinking about my life without Ally. I had these thoughts in my head before but last time it was because we thought she had died. But now it was worse. Ally was perfectly fine but i was the only person who lost her. I had just lost the love of my life, best friend, and person i cared most about. 

I drove to my mom's house and knocked on the door. She opened the door and saw me standing there drenched in tears, red puffy eyes, breathing heavily, head dropped down, hands in fists squeezing so hard my hands were shaking. "Christopher?" She questioned with worry. I didn't say anything but step forward and wrap my arms around her shoulders and buried my head in her shoulder. I started crying again and she rubbed my back and kept on telling me it was going to be okay without even knowing what happened. 

"I messed up big time, Ma." I told her. "Oh, baby. Come in and tell me what happened." She suggested. I unwrapped my arms and walked inside. I sat down on the long couch and she took a seat next to the arm rest. I moved so i was laying my head on her lap and she rubbed my arm. "What happened?" She asked me. "I ruined things between me and Ally, Ma. Last night the woman i was doing the photo shoot with pushed me against my hotel room door and started kissing me. She unlocked my door and pushed me inside. But Ally was there and saw everything. She was going to surprise me with being there. I tired so hard to get away from her but i couldn't. I kicked her out of my room, but Ally didn't see it. She wrote me a letter telling me we were done, and that she's not sure if she could ever see me again. I feel so broken, Ma." I said breaking down again. She just rubbed my back and tried to clam me down. 

"Oh, my baby boy. Have you tired talking with her?" She questioned. "I went to her work. But Hunter and Vincent locked me out before i could say anything to her. What am i going to do, Ma? Ally is the love of my life and i just lost her. I have loved her since i was teenager. And i can't even try to explain what actually happened." I said with more tears rolling down my cheeks. 

My mom ended up rubbing my back and tried to calm me down. I fell asleep in the guest room there. I silently cried myself to asleep. I didn't get much sleep because i had gotten used to sleeping with Ally in my arms. I am going to keep on trying to tell her what happened. But, a part of me is saying let her be, let her have some time. But i don't want to. I want to have her back. I would give everything i have, to have her back. I have never and never could love anyone like Allison.