Rookie (Eminem Fanfic)

I Just Wanna Hear Your Voice

RayLynn POV

"Hey, what's up Marshall?"

"What's up baby?"

He called me baby.

"Seen anything about me on the internet lately?" I asked him.

"Um, I, I...I don't know. What do ya mean?"

I lowered my head in embarrassment. One would have to be living under a rock to not see my name in the news these past 2 days. I must tell Marshall what's going on. I already feel so bad for fibbing to him yesterday.

"I'm sorry. I lied to you yesterday."

"About what?"

"Marshall, c'mon. My mom. The important businesswoman." I used my fingers to do a quoting motion. "She's actually behind bars."

"Yeah. I heard about it."

"I don't know why I told you that. It's humiliating. I guess I just didn't want to admit that my mother is a loser."

"Ray, you don't need to apologize. I understand why you said that shit."

"I don't want to be known as a liar. That's one of the worst things a person can be."

"It's fine. You already came clean. It's not any of my business, you don't owe me an explanation."

"I know, but we've been talking a lot. I wanna always keep it real with you."

Marshall didn't say anything to that. He just sat there staring in my eyes through the screen. He was sitting at a soundboard. It was nighttime in Detroit, so I think he was at home in his personal studio. I needed to change the subject. I gave Marshall a big sexy smile.

"You made me feel better last night." I giggled and he laughed too. "It was a great stress reliever."

"That was hot! You seemed a little fucked up though." He told me.

"No, I was alright. I barely even feel it this morning." I replied.

"Hey, you can do what you want, but you told me you don't party anymore." He said accusingly.

"Marshall, I don't. I drank some yesterday after I saw the news all over and then Macy said she could get us Ecstasy. That was it."

"You got it from Macy? I thought she was supposed to be sober."

How did he know that?

"Plus, you're a pothead." He told me.

"Well, excuse me." I answered him. There were a few moments of silence. "Marshall, I've been smoking weed since I was 14. When things get rough, I like to escape. That's just who I am."

"That's bullshit. That's just an excuse Ray." He stopped to take a deep breath. "RayLynn, I've been sober for 2 years now. Truly sober. And I've learned that life will be shitty sometimes and you have to face it. You must experience the raw emotion. You have to feel those bad feelings, even when you think it's unbearable. It's necessary to go through the bad shit with a clear head in order to appreciate and enjoy all the good things too. You wanna set a good example for Nevaeh."

I thought about it for a moment.

"I don't know Marshall. I used to do a lot more when I first got famous. I thought I was doing better. I don't do anything hard anymore. Well, except last night. Oh, and I did mushrooms on New Year's Eve."

Marshall gave me a little smile; I knew he meant well and was only trying to help.

"That's not really sober Ray. And it's not healthy either."

"I never considered not doing anything at all. It's actually really scary."

"Oh, it's terrifying. It's the scariest thing I've ever done, but it's also the most rewarding. I feel so much better when I'm with my daughters. My head isn't foggy anymore, I make better decisions."

I smiled nervously, "I'm sure it feels great." Just thinking about it made me anxious.

"Just think about it. Maybe try it for me. As an experiment." We both laughed.

"I've always been around drugs Marshall. My mother's been an addict my entire life, this is her third time in jail. On tour, everyone there is drinking and getting high. My ex-husband and I used to get high together. It just seems so normal." I told him.

"It's not though. It's not. You need to be able to function without drugs and alcohol." We stared at each other for a few seconds. "Anyway, watchu doin today? Ya got another show tonight?"

"Yeah, I gotta go soon. I have an interview this afternoon and I wanna get some lunch with my daughter."

"How much longer are you on tour for?"

"Um, I think like, another week and a half?" I estimated.

"And what are your plans then?"

"I'm only home for a week, I'll be in New York producing with Rick Rubin. And then I'm headed to Australia for another 2 weeks."

"Shit. Well, would you mind if I flew to New York so we could record together some more?"

"That would be nice. I'd like to see you in person again." We both smiled like two goons.

"I might not call you tonight." I told him. "After the show I should just get a shower and get a good night sleep after all of last night's shenanigans."

"Yeah, that's fine baby. I could actually get through a day at the studio without talking to your fine ass for two hours in my office." Marshall joked.

I laughed at him. "I'm sorry, I just think about you sometimes and I want to hear your voice."

"I'm kidding Ray. You can call me anytime you want, maybe do a little more of what we did last night." He wiggled his eyebrows.

"That would never have happened if I wasn't fucked up. I don't usually give it up that easy."

"When's the last time you was with a dude?"

I got quiet because it was a bit embarrassing. "I haven't been with anybody since I got divorced." I nearly whispered.

"Wait a second, wasn't that like over a year ago?"

I see he's been doing his research.

"Yes. I'm no longer interested in hooking up with hot guys on the road or one-nighters. I told myself when I got divorced that I wasn't going to be with another person unless I was in a relationship and that hasn't happened yet." He stared at me in disbelief. "Don't worry, I have a very capable vibrator."

"Girl, anytime you wanna do a little more of what happened last night, I'm down!"

I laughed heartily. "Don't worry Marshall, I'm sure we'll do that again sometime real soon."

A/N: 1. Ok, I'm ten chapters in now.  What do you guys think? Because, for real, I am not nearly as confident with this story as I was my first one.

2. I'm going to use other singers' music in the next few chapters just to demonstrate Marshall and Ray's chemistry and exemplify what an extraordinary performer RayLynn is.

3. I know it always seems like I write about trauma, but I think it's because that's really all I know quite honestly.  It's just one of the reasons I'm such a crazy fan of the one and only Marshall Mathers!

Thank you all so much for reading!!!!!!