What Happens When You Move Too Fast

2/12/2021

Lynn Hart

    What if I just drop kick someone? Preferably myself. I've dated three people this school year and there will probably be more to come. Why? Because I have a thing called attachment issues! I'll get attached real quick but I won't stay attached for very long so when I found out my tenth "crush" of the year liked me back I went berserk.
   
    I thought my feelings for her were on account of her being nice to me all of the time and my attachment issues but I've felt this way for a week and I still can't stop thinking about her.

I think she's the one

    I was just sitting in algebra today and she, Ria Elumba, keeps popping up in my mind. I kept trying to push those feelings down because I already have a garbage social life and if I somehow mess things up with this girl I'll be miserable. But me being me I decide it's worth the risk.
   
    After class, I ask my friends Rebecca and Vada if they're sure Ria likes me back. I don't have a psychotic need to get people to like me but I like knowing the answer I'll probably get when I ask someone to be my partner because I'm embarrassed very easily. Vada reassures me over and over that I have nothing to worry about and Rebecca just seems annoyed because they have had to tell me dozens of times already.
   
    I shove my stuff in my locker and grab a Ring Pop I had on the top shelf of my locker and go to lunch. Why would she say no? It's two days till Valentine's Day, everybody wants someone. Maybe I'll ask her to be my girlfriend with the Ring Pop- or is that stupid? Yeah, it's stupid but if she's so bothered by it maybe I don't want to date her.
   
    I wait until lunch is over to ask her because she's kind of shy and she would probably become embarrassed by me. For some reason, Rebecca and Vada decided to come with "emotional support" as if I need it. I get Ria's attention and she looks over, confused because Rebecca and Vada decided to pull out their phones and record.

Thanks, guys.

    I try to make this as subtle as possible because I don't wanna embarrass her any more than I probably have. But it doesn't help that my FRIENDS ARE RECORDING EVERYTHING. If I'm being complete with myself though, I'll probably watch that video over and over if she says yes.
   
    I get down on one knee trying not to burst out laughing from the awkwardness of this situation and Daisha looks like she's having a full-on panic attack of confusion. I pull out the Ring Pop and ask her quietly if she'll be my girlfriend so my friends won't burst into a squealing fit. I was freaking out. I really shouldn't be because Vada has already told me multiple times she likes me back. But what if she just doesn't want to date anyone?
   
    Well, I guess she does because she said yes. A wave of relief crashed over me. Public humiliation had been avoided. She hugs me and we go out to the bus. We rode different buses so she walked to hers and I walked to mine, but I didn't leave before saying "I love you" and she said it back. My heart is happy.

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    It was an early-out today which meant students get out of school early so the staff could have some most likely pointless meetings. But hey, that's two hours less of school. As soon as I get home I send the video Vada took to two of my better friends. Like they're the best, better than Rebecca and Vada combined. I don't know what I'd do without them if I'm being honest.
   
    Matthew Matthews. One of my best friends since I've moved to this piece of shit school. He's kind of quiet but he's the best. Matthew is very talented at everything when it comes to artistic ability. He's also the smartest person I know, I'll ask him a question, he won't give me an answer but he'll be sure to send me some funny memes to lighten my mood.
   
    Nova Easterling. Also one of my best friends. We didn't become friends until Matthew introduced us but now she's the first person I tell whenever I have any "tea". She kind of pissed me off this summer so I tried to drop her but she's such a Taurus, very stubborn, and she pushed her way back into my life. I'm glad she did because like Matthew she's the best (maybe even better than him, not likely though).

    Here's how my conversation with Nova went:

Me: I have tea

Me: video.jpg

Nova: h u h

Me: What?

Nova: i cannot understand wtf you guys are saying speak up >:(

Me: Oh. I'll add captions just wait

Nova: lol thanks <3

Me: video.jpg

Nova: WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Me: What?

Nova: You asked out RIAAAAAAA??

Me: Yes hahaha

Nova: AWWW IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU GUYS WTFFYDHJDKDD

Me: Thanks haha

Nova: i hate valentines. im so lonely T-T

Me: You can be my valentine toooooooo.

Nova: tehe thx :3

Take what you can from that and here's my conversation with Matthew:

Me: video.jpg

Matthew: Yeet

    Polar opposite people but Nova and Matthew have been friends since kindergarten sometimes I kind of feel left out from them but I don't take it to heart because I arrived late. Matthew is also a Scorpio so it's okay that he didn't seem to care.
   
    I don't have a social life so it was no surprise I was sitting in my room on a Friday and not hanging out with someone or getting high. Instead, I talked to Ria. I got a text message from Vada asking if I actually liked Ria or if I was just lonely and wanted a valentine. I replied with yes I actually like her. I wouldn't use someone like that. I guess she was just looking out for me and my attachment issues? I don't know I was kind of offended by it but I quickly got over it because I feel happy with someone with whom I hope is happy.
   
    Then I randomly get the idea to plan a Minecraft date with her. Why you may ask. Well because we both love Minecraft and don't love going out. I already can visualize it in my mind. So I quickly open my notes app and type down the ideas that come to mind.

•Get rid of mob spawn (duh
•When Ria joins give her water if she gets anxious
•Walk her through a hallway of pickup lines I'll put on the walls
•Heart in chest
•Give her armour and name it: Lynns hoodie, cozy sweatpants, and slippers
•Give her rose that's named: I love you
•Teddy bear
•Mcdonalds date on rollercoaster
•Ask her to be my valentine in chat and if she says no ill death drop myself
•Firworks
•"You give da best hugs."

    I send the list to our group chat. The group chat consisted of Matthew, Nova, and me. They both respond almost immediately. It's like they were on the phone when they got the message.
And this is how it kind of went.

Me: *sends list*
Me: any other ideas?

Matthew: make the armor gay.

Me: alr then

Nova: f i r w o r k s

Nova: Maybe not say I love you...

Matthew: Yeah maybe not I love you yet.

Me: We already said it so I'm putting it lol.

Nova: WHAA

Matthew: You're moving f a s t

Nova: yeah, s p e e d y

Me: I know I'll be careful.

Nova: oh k

    They have nothing to worry about. If we said it this early maybe it means she's it for me. But I'll work on that Minecraft world for now.

ENJOY THIS CRINGE.
but isnt that what middle school relationships are made for :)

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