A while had past, and I decided to see what Pico was texting me. I prepared for the worst. I've notice he sent about seven messages. He didn't have the best spelling, but I could assume why. The texts read:
"KEITH WHREE AAE YYOU?"
"YOU!REE AMMKING A MISAKE"
"PLAESE"
"DON'TTD GO BACKV TTO THEM"
"THEY'RE GGONA HURT YYOE"
"IM SORY"
"JUST COME ABCK"I feel bad. I caused a lot of stress and worry in him and his parents. I'm sure he doesn't know where I live either. He's gonna take a lot of time on searching for me. I knew he cared. Why can't I just care the same. I hate this.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I don't want to suffer anymore.
When can I just have a normal life.
It's never going to be like that now.
I'm stuck.
Forever.I waited some time, and suddenly, everything had gotten quiet again. I don't recall it being silent? What was happening to me. My ears rung, and I felt nauseous. Was I about to pass out? What is wrong with me.
I keep overthinking too hard. I don't want to be apart of this anymore. I don't deserve this. I'm done. I'm tired of waiting for something new to happen. Every single day is just the same crap over and over again. I miss being a kid. I remember those times where I would play with this one kid. I forgot her name though. I don't think she really liked me. She kinda hated my guts. I think I can see why now. There isn't much to like about me.
I stood up out of my bed a looked into my phone, responding to Pico's texts.
"I'm okay, I promise. No worries. My parents didn't hurt me. I'm just chilling in my room."He surely read my message. However, Pico didn't respond to it. I want him to stop looking for me. Sooner or later, I realized that if I didn't come back, everything could have changed. Maybe this idea was stupid. You know what. I'm gonna run back to Pico. It's gonna be awkward, but this is what I get for thinking I know what's best for me. Maybe Pico was right. All of this is stupid.
I went up to my window, and hopped onto the front-rooftop of my house, and climbed down from the pillar supporting the roof. I ended up scraping my knee, but that's nothing. I swapped the tables and then was the one who started looking for Pico.
I began to look through the park, and I didn't see him there. He might be at the bar or his house. I stopped by this bridge near this river. I looked down, and realize how far down it was. Everything got quiet again.
Why does everything keep getting quiet? What triggers this? Was my overthinking moments? Something wasn't right. I stared down at the river that flowed quickly and thought;
<If I was to jump off this bridge right now, would my death be quick?>
I thought about it for a moment. I don't think I was really about to let myself go right there.
..Was I?
No no, that'd be stupid. But then again... Nah, I wouldn't do that... Right? I dragged my finger-tips against the railing. I could feel all the letters that were carved into the bridge. I looked at them. There was "S+S", "N+S", "Z+S", and "R+Q". How sweet. I remember as a kid I liked to carve my name into trees with a small knife just for the fun of it. Usually just "Keith was here" though. I heard yells behind me. I think Pico and his parents were back in that area looking for me. I didn't turn around. I didn't want to. I keep making stupid decisions. I hate when I do that. I just tried to make everything right. I dragged Pico into this mess. I feel ashamed.
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Is He Really Worth It? ( *Pico x Keith* )
FanfictionA 19 year old, collage drop-out ran away from his abusive home to get away from his toxic parents who were forcing him to do other things like sports. He ended up stumbling upon someone familiar, he could of sworn that he seen this guy in high schoo...