Taejin/Jinkook One Shots

A JinKook love story

Mostly in Jungkook's point of view

It's been a week since he left, and in that week I haven't smiled or laughed, I don't have the energy I once had, I'm the youngest of the group and should be full of life and vigor, but since he left, he took all of me with him. Now I just move about like a robot, doing what I am told, I don't even joke with the others anymore, they all blame me for his departure, they are all right.

I love him, but afraid of the backlash

I want him to be mine, but afraid that everyone will hate us

I want to hold him and tell him I'm sorry, but afraid of his reaction

I knew that he had feelings for me, he did so well as the Hyung to try and hide them, to fight them, to push them to the back of everything else. He knew falling for the Maknae, five years his junior would upset the Company, the members, our families and especially ARMY. We had fans that wanted us together, but there were fans that were sorely against us too, and that scared us both, so he remained vigilant. I was the idiot, he knew I had feelings for him, I couldn't keep my hands to myself, I couldn't not stare at him every chance I got, you've seen him right, so then you understand why I could never take my eyes off him.

My Jin-Hyung was my everything, he was always there for me no matter what, no matter what else he had going on, even if he wasn't physically next to me, he always made sure I was taken care of. I was horrible at texting him, I am horrible at texting everybody, but I should have done more for him, I should have taken the minutes to just text him a hi, or a good night or to answer him that I was fine and missed him too. I took all of that for granted, I always told myself my Hyung would never leave me, would never leave us but he finally had enough and now he is gone.

"Jungkook, you need to snap out of it, there is nothing we can do now, Jin- Hyung has made up his mind, you fucked up and now you have to live with your actions", Yoongi-Hyung says sharply. He is the most upset with me, besides Me, Yoongi was the closest to Jin, but all the members are upset, especially Taehyung, he hasn't spoken to me since Jin-Hyung left. No one has heard from him, I texted his brother 2 days after he left and he said he hasn't heard from Jin, not even about the restaurant.  He really has gone into hiding, away from me, away from this life that he loved and hated all at the same time, we all go thru that sometimes, that feeling of I cant live without my brothers, being on the road, and seeing ARMY, but damn I wish I could do whatever I want, when I want without having to ask permission or answer to anyone.

"Jungkook, I honestly dont know why you let it all come to this, why did you feel the need to hurt the one person you have loved for almost 10 years now, the one person who stuck up for you and would lay his life on the line for you", Jimin says. "Do you know how many times he took an ass chewing from PD Bang for you, Golden Maknae thought he could do no wrong, but when you did it was Jin-Hyung who took the heat and you never even knew it half the time, or didn't want to recognize it because I never once heard you say thank you." "I hate you for making him leave, but I'm also happy he did, because he deserves better than you", Jimin huffs, and walks out.

I'm an asshole and I know it, I went and got tattoos without a word to anyone, BH was pissed, but Jin-Hyung convinced them that it would be okay because he is sure more than half of ARMY has tattoos, and that they weren't distasteful. Dying my hair without permission, even though I learned that from Jin, which makes me smile, but again he stuck up for me with PD Bang. Damn, he was so good to me, and I didn't deserve it, what did I do, I chased him away when he needed warmth, when he needed just a little back of what he has given me and the other members, but it was me he came to, and I treated him like a stranger.

Flashback  7 days ago...

Jin

Man, dance practice was a rough one today, it doesn't help I am still sore from the Run episode we taped yesterday, the one thing that keeps going is Jungkook, watching his energy come alive and the way he moves like he's floating on a cloud. Jimin and Hobi are amazing dancers, but I think Jungkook doesn't get recognized enough, then again I am probably bias. My Maknae, he makes my heart flutter when he touches me, or stares at me to long, he's the main reason my ears and cheeks get so red. I have had feelings for him that I shouldn't, I'm 5 years older and I am his Hyung, I practically raised him, I shouldn't have such feelings. I do my best to push them out of my mind, but its hard, especially when he touches me, or hugs me, or rubs up against me. The others have told me that they are sure Jungkook has the same feelings as me, but I dont see it, or I dont want to see it, because I know its wrong. While everybody gets their things together to go back the dorm, I run to the bathroom, while I'm in the stall I hear the door open, I walk out and see Jungkook leaning against the sink. "What's up Kook-ah", I ask trying not to look at him. He grabs my waist and pulls me so that I am leaning against him, he buries his face in my neck, sniffing along my jaw line. "I cant keep my hands off you when you are all sweaty and looking so hot", he says running his hands under my shirt. "Kook, stop I'm all sweaty, since when do you even notice me, you barely even talk to me at practice", I say trying to push him away. He holds me tighter to him, kissing me and telling me I am beautiful in my ear. "I want you so bad Hyung, I wish you would give me a chance..." and before I knew it I was on the floor. Jungkook pushed me down when the door opened and started to yell at me for trying to touch him and kiss him. Namjoon ran over and helped me up, and I am embarrassed, I had tears in my eyes, Jungkook shattered my heart, I never believed he could treat me that way, I felt cheap and worthless...